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ok i am ashamed to say i looked back and saw how long i ve not writen although i was on quit often and looked alot,  :)    i am much smaller and thinner then i wanted to be.    through out all of this i wanted to be a healthier person, not a skinny person. and i ve gone well beyond where i wanted to go , i was hopeing for around 150  but i am down to 103. i am torerateing more foods but its still a day by day process and it took me 42 years to make the habits and the body i carried for so long, i m trying to trust in my new body be patient while i learn the new system!                                                                                                                                             i ve had some sad days and emotional days but i honest to god  feel as if i m with out regrets,  i wish i could attack a big mac  ,  lol  and i would love a big thick grilled steak but would i got back to may 6th2009   and say ok i ve seen everything, every ache/ pains / scar / thought/  and others reactions  , that come with this surgery , would i not do it??. and i say i would                                                                                                                                                                  . i even had a few extra days stay, and  a bit of an infection. but i d take it all over again in a nano second.  i have energy  , i can walk  thru the store and not be as winded and exhusted. i can hug my boyfriend and feel his arms all the way around me .  i can  play with my grandkids and i m awake and up and i enjoymy days more  and i feel good when i wake up  refreshed actually not so sluggish.  i still have health issues my weight  cant fix.  i still have medications i will always have to take. i still have emotional days , but its not the same as it was when being over weight added to the burdens on my body and mind.   i was never ashamed to be fat or heavy i loved my curves,  but i loved the people around me who would miss my curves and everything that made me,   me.even more, if i did nt get healthier and inprove myself.        once you let someone into your life and let them love you even as a friend, then youve given apart of your self to them and you ve given them the right to worry  for you love and have concern right back.  so be good to yourself , your friends deserve the best you  , you can be!  have a great day everybody    there is life after the flu!!

im very happy with the amount of weight i m losing but miss my bodys curves that are no longer here,  lol i couldnt wait to lose my life long j lo but and now i miss it.    chairs are hard, lol   my bones have made an appearence and all they do is complain!  i walk  or bike every day. i just keep moving. i have a good support system but still finding i feel alone and  not sure how i m taking all the changes  and i really really wish i could eat a grilled steak!  i ve sailed thru clothes some i never ven wore they went from too tight to too big too fast! but all in all i had a good day  got alot accomplished, i weighted in at 167  today  and its been a long time sence i saw such low numbers on a scale i was on. i m going to bed happy tonight .

i am still abit behind about 65 oz liqs and 50 gms protien a day.   all in all i feel pretty good , my hips and knees are protesting but i m walking or biking 3 to 5 miles a day.  i still have a painful feeling when i sip even tiniest sips can hurt, even room temp water. i still feel like my thirst isn quenched.  i m not hungry , but i miss  some things.  i never knew i could have so much will power  lol. i am very happy that i proceeded with this.disspite a few set backs and delays, i have no regrets!

 i had surgery may 6 th and i feel like i m just not getting enough in me. i will be calling dr s office monday.  i m stilll getting in about 30 to 40 oz in liquids mostly water and maybe 4 oz in thicker substances but still have difficulty  keeping much down.  i still feel so weak . i have been walking every day, 3 to 5 miles in our local park walking track. i m not regreting anything  but i am missing , being able to take a nice drink that actually satisfied my thirst.  the dumping  seams to hit me no matter, what  or how i eat or drink.   im frustrated

i had my surgery on the 6 th of may. i started my liquid diet at 236, at my pcp office and weighd 209 on the 20 th of may at the wch.   i ended up staying a few extra days due to fever and high white cell count, i felt a bit blah, but all in all the extra days of rest and care were well worth not having to worry and second guess my  self at home.  its been near 3 weeks and i feel a little better on the inside each day. the coughs sneezes and movements hurt even less every day.  i been walking a few miles every day  and i m actually using a sleenkie, to balance hand to hand as i walk . low inpact,  easy on the wrist, and easy on the shoulders.( i have ostoarthuritis)  and its keeps me moving.   i m still behind on the liquid intake and the foods are still staying limited,  the purreed things are the only things staying with me and as much as i want an egg my guts not ready!   i m in need of more protien, i believe but i ve made mini popcycles out of my protien water mixes 6  gives 10 grm of protien!   i m really hoping for some suggestions or reciepes  for soups that arent cremed!!   well people this is workable, and advise or tips to share   feel free to write me !  thanks  jodygirl

truth be told;   days 2 and 3, i thought my stomach ate its self,lol but after that, i was good. i could even let others say food in the same room as me. i was able to put on and even wear a pair of size 18 s thats been a long time in the closet! i got the excited jitters but i am sooo ready . I am so happy with dr lalor and his staff, i am 42 years old and i feel like i m in control  for the first time in my life. i knew i could do this .  i knew i couldnt do it alone.   i didnt know i could feel so at ease and feel so safe in a dr s  handsi know im gonna sorprise alot of people! , may 6 th will be the first day on the road to the new me!  wish me luck, people!

At last!!!  I didn t think the day of an approval lettter would ever arrive, But  it came yesterday!  It s been a long 14 months!   i am so excited.  I start my liquid diet, weds the 23 rd  and my surgery date is  for may 6 th.  and nothing short of death will stop me. anyone with words of advise or encouragement please  feel free to e mail me!  thanks!