Jul 07, 2010This journey is so hard. Recently I have been snacking on things I shouldn't. I do not dump. I may in the future but for now it is dangerous. Last night I got all the ingredients out for s'mores that we forgot to have July 4th! I took one look at it all and made myself one!! The finished off the choccy bar, then drank a little milk to wash it down. I have never broken the drinking with eating rule and have had a Little choccy every now and then, not a whole bar!! I was so mad at myself as I had every intention to not bother with the s'mores for myself. I went to bed depressed and disappointed in myself. Unfortunately, due to the amount of chocolate in my systemm also didn't get to sleep until very late!!
Today is a new day. I still dragged myself out of bed at 6am to go for my walk. I have tracked my food and fluids all day so far. I had been getting lazy with that. Today I feel empowered and I know that I can fail my RNY if I am not careful. I have done so great this last 6 months and I am back on track now!!
I needed this reminder that I am always going to have issues with food and have to be on guard. Protein first. Always. I needed this wake up call for me to be more compliant again. It is a tough journey but I can do it and will do it!!
saint peters, MO
Apr 10, 2009