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Well today is a rock bottom for me again. I have gained weight back. I currently weigh 261. I am so mad at myself. I will start tomorrow with the 5 day pouch test. I gotta stop eating all this sugar!!! Breads!!! I am totally disappointed with myself. I have a headache and the only reason I am blogging is because I want to remember this day so it may never happen again! I feel like such a failure. I have too many clothes. My foot hurts again like it did when I was way overweight. Now is the time to free myself of this mess of fat. My body is not looking good. On my way back to me and beyond. I will not give up.

Well almost two years. I am still doing great. Still blessed and beng protected. God is my saving grace. This tool has been good for me. I have had so many changes in the last two years and it has been more good than bad. I cannot complain. I can't wait to see what God has in store for my future. He gives his children good gifts. I hope all who had surgery around the time that i did are doing well. I miss talking to you guys. Thanks for the support.

Well it has been a long time. This 4th of july I went to a carnival. I was having such a good time that for labor day i am going to six flag and ride on some more stuff. I could not believe i was riding on rides and i fit and i wasn't embarassed. I felt like a normal person. I had fun with my kids. Thank you God. I am so blessed. I have set a wedding date for early next year. Hopefully it will happen. If not I will be the first to blog it. Gotta go get busy. I need to lose 58 more lbs.

Well today i can see why people call those moments"wow" moments. I ran into an old co-worker today that i had not saw since a couple of weeks after surgery. She honestly did not recognize me. She saw me first and said did you lose weight. She doesn't know i had the surgery. I said yeah just a lil bit. And she replied NO it was more than a lil bit because i saw you come in the door and i knew you looked familar and  i couldnt place you. now see... i was speechless. I didnt know what to say. i told my boyfriend did i really lose that much and he said yes you just dont see it but others do. Wow that was truely a wow moment. I dont look that different to myself. I cant see it so all evening i have been thanking God and my surgeon and just looking in the mirror trying to see what she sees.lol Funny and yes I can say it is nice..

WELL TODAY MAKES EXACTLY TWO WEEKS SINCE SURGERY. MY CLOTHES ARE SO LOOSE ON ME. tHAT IS A GREAT FEELING. 
I had no problems during or after surgery. The hospital staff was great. All except the guy who wheeled me out. He hit every bump he could. I prayed for him though. Hopefully the next person he wheels out he will be gentle with that wheel chair. After the second bump I almost told him hey i will just walk. But God is good. I am still strong. I got a few more days before i return to work. I feel pretty good. I hope everyone feel as good as i do afterwards. This is one journey i am going to take full advantage of.

October 7th,2007
You see, there were a few times when I thought I was gonna lose my mind, But GOD kept me sane.(Isa. 26:3)
There were times when I thought I could go no longer, But the LORD kept me moving( Gen 28:15)
At times, I've wanted to lash out at those whom I felt had done me wrong, But the LORD kept my mouth shut. (Psa.13)
Sometimes I think the money just isn't enough, But GOD has helped me to kept the lights on, the water on, the car paid, the house paid, etc..(Matt.6:25-34)
When I thought I would fall, he kept me up. When I thought i was weak, he kept me strong!(I Pet.5:7, Matt. 11:28-30)
I could go on and on, but i'm sure you hear me! Praise the LORD and pass the filet migon! I'M BLESSED TO BE KEPT!