Admittedly Pig-headed

Mar 26, 2015

Four days until surgery. Just four little days, yet they seem to be bigger than life right now. Overall, I am fairly calm, though I do worry that something will stop the surgery (again). I have my emotional moments, (again) worrying...aftercare for me, simple day-to-day care for my husband, and just the little tasks that I will not able to complete for a while.

One of the books I have read regarding WLS talks about the generality of obese persons are typically the caregivers and the strong emotional support providers and once surgery has taken place and this new chapter begins, it is hard for them to ask for help, since they are the ones who normally give it. So, I ask myself...am I the emotionally supportive or the emotionally needy one? I like to think I am an independent person, but not pig-headed enough to not ask when I need help.

I would be lying. I am pig-headed because I have a VERY hard time asking for help. I strive to be a strong person, yet worry that I am not. Does that make sense?

I know in the coming days, months, and even years my strength (physically and emotionally) will be tested every day and it seems ridiculous to put myself through all of that unnecessary burden when all I have to do is ask. Easier said than done, but this is my life. I have a second chance to live my life and I am not going to sabotage it because of pride.

I will do my best to keep you all post on my journey. Thank you for all of your kind words of wisdom and support; it is very much appreciated.

My advise to anyone:

Stay strong. Stay Positive. Lose the pig-headed attitude and ask for help.

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