Monday, July 16, 2007

My name is Anne, I'm 44 years old, weigh 260 lbs and have a BMI of almost 48...isn't that just wonderful (as she pukes uncontrollably).   I hate being fat...I hate everything about it.  I hate the looks that others give you...I hate having to buy clothes at the fat people's store...I hate the fact that men don't look at me anymore cause I look like a beached whale....I hate the fact that when I  tie my shoe laces it feels like an Olympic event...I hate this "buffalo hump" that I have on my back between my shoulders cause hey, guess what? I'm fat!   I hate it when I try to go to the gym and someone asks, "What are you going to do there?  EAT?"  (someone actually said that to me) I hate that I've become reclusive because I'm mortified by how much weight I've gained.  And oh, did I mention....I HATE BEING FAT!!!!

I'm waiting for my approval letter from OHIP.  The wait is killing me.  That's all I can think about.  Does everyone go through this?  God help them if they do.  I phoned OHIP this morning cause I wanted to see how how long it would take for them to finally send me  this elusive letter.  They said it would take 6 to 8 weeks from the time I applied.   I feel as though I've had my life on hold for so long....years and years really.   I long to be normal.  I kiddingly told my sister that when I'm thin, I'm gonna buy all my clothes at  slut.com  lol. Well...maybe not..lol

I have a book of quotes that I've kept forever.  I've had this one for years....and when I'm thin, I'm gonna get it printed on a T-shirt....."NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS BEING THIN FEELS!"    I know.  I've been thin.  Maybe one day again.

Anne 

About Me
Sudbury, XX
Location
31.5
BMI
RNY
Surgery
11/13/2007
Surgery Date
Jul 12, 2007
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