Joy_72
Back to basics...
Sep 14, 2011
Sugar and carbs seem to be my biggest problem. No matter what I eat.. I don't dump. I have to be careful and stay focused on NOT eating sugar and carbs. Even though I can, I wont. I do not want to gain again.
My body is starting to hate me again. I'm in a lot of pain, depressed, not healthy. I had surgery to begin with because I couldn't stand the pain. Fibromyalgia and arthritis are making me miserable. It was so much easier to manage without the extra weight. I remember feeling GREAT! Time to get back to that. I'm sick of hurting EVERYday!
Bottom line.. I need self-discipline! I will not beat myself up.. I WILL focus on what I'm putting into my body!
New Year...New Me!!
Dec 30, 2007
Hi Friends!
It has been a great year! I was able to have weightloss surgery this year in Oct! I am so blessed. :) I have not regreted my decision once. So far I have lost 44 pounds!!!
I eat better than I ever have...as far as quality, healthy food. I am also proud that I've kicked my Mt. Dew habbit in the butt!! That in itself is a small miracle. ;) I feel better knowing that for the most part everything I put into my body is good for me. :) I have abused my body for far too long!
I have learned so much about me and my eating habbits, addictions, etc.. I realize that I ate for emotional reasons most of the time. Its hard somedays to cope without food as a "drug". I'm learning though.
My self-confidence is slowly increasing and I'm feeling better about myself everyday. I have hope for the first time in a long, long time. My pain is getting better. I only have to take meds a few times a week now instead of a few times a day. :) Hopefully in 6 months I won't need any narcotic pain meds.
I'm looking forward to whatever 2008 has for me. It's going to be a great year. I can't wait to enjoy the spring and summer with my children outside....This year i'll be able to participate so much more. Living feels great and I thank God for it. I had an awesome surgical team...Love them! Thanks also to all of you ...my peeps here on OH...ALL of YOU...really....I would be lost without y'all. Thanks for doing what you do!
Happy New Year to you all!! Hope it finds you and yours healthy and happy!!
~Joy
PS..I promise to add some pics as soon as I figure out how to make my camera and PC get along. :D
10 Days Out....
Oct 24, 2007
I'm beginning to feel some energy... Something I haven't felt in a very long time. :) The soreness that I did have is gone. Now I only feel a pinch on my left side whenever I move a certain way.
I'm still taking it easy and resting. Sometimes I have to remind myself that I'm fresh out of surgery and need to take it easy! :)
I have lost about 10 pounds in 10 DAYS!! Great start, never done that before!! Thank you God!! :)
Hospital Experience....
Oct 20, 2007
I had a good experience. I went in on Monday October 15th...had surgery @ 10:45 am. Was a little nervous but not as much as I expected really...they gave me something for that before I went into the OR. Thank you cute anesthesiologist! :) lol His longggg eyelashes were the last thing I saw before I went out! I remember waking up around 5 Pm in my room and seeing my Mom and her best friend there...and I was like ok....someone is here and I went back out light a light. The rest of that day is a total blur...I was woken up every hour or so for them to check my vitals and rested mostly. Tuesday morning I was so glad to get out of that bed and move. I had become stiff from not moving and was in pain from that...didn't even notice the pain from my incisions until later that day. Felt much better after walking. I was allowed ice chips and a little juice. Rested all day. Wednesday morning the nurse got me and said I could shower. What a releif that was. I was sore but felt so much better afterwards. Then Dr. Long came in to check on me...said I was progressing very nicely and asked if I was ready to go home. So...at about 1 Pm I was released from the hospital.
9 More Days....
Oct 06, 2007
I'm going to the beach after my pre-op appt. on the 10th of Oct. I'll only get to stay for 3 days then the day after I get back home..I'm off to the hospital in Roanoke for surgery!
I'll be with my 3 children and my Mom and Sis and 2 nieces. I have NO PLANS once I get there... I just want to enjoy the ocean and play with the kids on the beach and in the pool, etc. AND of course I'll play photographer. :D I am so excited....I can hardly wait!!!!
SURGERY DATE SET!!!!
Sep 12, 2007
I'm so excited but now I also have lots of other emotions coming up into the mix. I think its just a natural part of the journey.... to be so happy and so scared and all the other things all at the same time.
I'm getting my stuff together...making my arrangements for the kids while i'm in the hospital and such. Hunting down a Magic Bulllet, etc.. lol
At least 2 more months!!
Aug 23, 2007
Yet another hurdle. I have to go into see my PCP for the next 2 months to be weighed and talk to him about my diet/exercise. Then I will have a total of 6 months documented visits.
I get so frustrated when they tell me i'm ok..got everything I need in order and then....all of a sudden things change!!
I'm trying to be positive but its SOOOO hard! I was thinking I'm not 100% prepared and this time will give me a chance to get some things done.
I need to experiment with some different protein powders, get vitamins, supplements, etc..
I also want to get my house cleaned really good and organized a little more.
So...I have my weigh-in appt. set for Sept. Then i'll do another one in Oct.
Then...maybe I'll finally be cleared!!
Waiting.....
Aug 14, 2007
The last I heard from J.B. was that my medical records were sufficient and I WOULD NOT have to do the whole 6 month medically supervised diet. She is now waiting on the psych report to come back from 8-2.
I'm trying to NOT be so impatient but it is so hard to do. A few weeks ago I was so excited about a surgery date (8-13). It didn't work out...so ..I guess today i'm just down about it all. I was supposed to be a loser by now. lol
Anyway...enough crying..I have even more time to prepare and learn.
Getting closer.....
Jul 25, 2007
Today...
Jul 13, 2007
Also went to RMH for stress test. Cardiologist said heart looks healthy ...will study it closer and send report to my surgeon around Tues.. I have my Psych. Eval on 8-2-07. Wish me luck on that one. :) I hope I can get in and out of surgery before my kids go back to school.
I think things may be coming together! Thank you God.
