I got on the scale....

Mar 01, 2010

I got on the scale. By the expression you are seeing you can tell what I saw may have not been so good. I knew I gained weight. I just didn't want to face how much.

35 lbs. It was so hard to lose those pounds... and now they're back. But guess what? They came back because I quit weighing. I finally faced my demon and stepped on that scale. Now I can step on it every morning and make a decision about my diet for that day.... GOOD decisions.

I have only myself to blame. I won't blame the bad economy or the loss of my husbands job. I won't blame moving to a small town where I am miserable. I won't blame a long winter of bad food choices and no exercise.... Well, maybe I WILL blame that.

So now... I weigh 195 lbs. There! I said it. Now I can use that as a number to reduce from.

I did ok today. Chicken breast (fried) for both breakfast and another for lunch and then for an early dinner I ordered half a cobb salad from a restaurant with Ranch dressing. I had a low carb and high protein day. Unfortunately I had lots of fat today too. But it's a start.
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Hmmm... Somethings working?

Feb 17, 2010

I started taking all my vitamins again. . . within days I was feeling better. Then driving down the road, I was playing with the radio and overheard an interview where the guy was talking about the benefits of taking Vitamin D and FISH OIL. He said that people who take the two together have shown higher results of weightloss without really dieting.

WOW... I was wondering what I was doing that seemed to be working because I'm feeling thinner (I won't get on a scale yet). Well, maybe this is it.

Anyway, I am feeling better. I'm still not down to my lowest weight again yet, but I know I'm losing weight.

TAKE YOUR VITAMINS.....

So with that said on this early February morning, I will get up off this couch and shut down this computer and go take my vitamins!
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January 30th Update

Jan 30, 2010

I still haven't gotten on a scale. I'm not ready to see the depressing results yet. I'm trying to do better with my eating habits. I'm trying to eat less and eat more of the right things. I'm taking my vitamins again. I haven't bought any protein shakes/drinks/powder in a year. I don't live where that is very accessible.

Next Friday I go to Moab to see my hubby. He's been working out and eating a lot of salad. It makes me feel bad. I've been eating Nachos and hashbrowns. Today my diet consisted of the following:

2 eggs, hashbrown patties for breakfast.
Bowl of cereal for lunch. Frosted Oats and skim milk for lunch
Nachos for dinner.
Country Time Lemonade

Cookie for a snack.

Apple Cider beer for the evening sweet tooth.

It doesn't seem like much. Especially when I compare to what I ate before WLS. But I know my choices today SUCKED. Did I get any exercise? Not really. I went to feed my horses and then worked on oiling a bunch of horse tack and polishing bits.

Just keeping a log of what I eat keeps me honest with myself.... don't flame me. At least I'm still here... trying.
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Not an easy task

Jan 23, 2010

I am trying to do better eating like an RNY patient. However, it isn't easy. I like SUGAR and carbs and they rarely make me very sick anymore. I never really got too sick from much unless I REEEAAALLLLYYY over did it.

Protein first; Protein first. I keep telling myself that. No drinking with meals... I try not to do much of that. Working out? Thank goodness I have my daughter to push me to get out of the house and to the gym. I always feel much better when it's done and I'm glad I went.

I went horseback riding yesterday for three hours. I want to start doing a lot more of that. It calms me and it is great exercise for my core muscles.

What have I eaten today? A half breast of baked chicken, half a protein bar, a large orange and about 1/2 cup of Mango Sorbet. I'm full for now, but it is only 2:30 pm. I have a roast in a slow cooker. I hope that it turns out tender, juicy and full of rich flavor. Then BACK
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Workouts and Diet....

Jan 22, 2010

I don't keep track of what I eat. I used to measure and count everything. I have been telling myself to start writing things down again and looking them up to see how many calories I am taking in... But I never do it.

Well, Today I had a protein bar for 190 cal and 15g protein. Then I ate Mac/Cheese and a Pizza Pocket for lunch, rode a horse for three hours in freezing cold weather in Eastern Oregon where I live now and then I went to my mothers and ate about 15 spoonfuls of her vegetable and beef casserole.

I went to the gym and got an hour of exercise in and came home and drank water. I'm not hungry and I'm going to bed. I know I ate too much today, but I am hoping I did enough activity today to burn most of it off.

Jen
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The Long Road Back

Jan 20, 2010

Ok, I have joined the ranks of many post op WLS patients who didn't lose all they wanted. Struggled to lose what they did; and eventually gained more back than they were ok with. This morning, I could not pull up my 34 waist jeans enough to get them buttoned. That did it for me. I'm joining a gym and starting a diary of what goes in my mouth. I have GOT to get a handle on this.... I don't want to be fat again and I'm already overweight again......

I have never had a support group. I had my surgery in Mexico and have been "on my own"... I'm living in a small town where support groups don't exist so I'm back on obesityhelp to get the support I need here.

Jen
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Where did I go?

Jan 17, 2010

My husband lost his job last april of 2009. We packed up everything in May and moved back to eastern Oregon. I didn't get on Obesity Help because I don't eat right. I eat too much, and too many of the wrong things. I gained a bunch of weight and I don't like to look at myself anymore. I'm back now and hoping to be reinspired to take this weight off again. I realise I am no longer a NEWBY and it will be tough to get this weight off again. How do others do it?

Jen
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SO MUCH going on....

Mar 30, 2009

Here it is almost April of 2009. I had surgery for weightloss in November of 2007. I look in the mirror and still see the fat woman... sometimes.

I recently went to the funeral of my grandfather. He was 94 when he passed away. Many of my family members had no clue who I was until they got up close to me. There were men I didn't even know but am somehow related to competing to talk with me and taking my picture???? I don't come from that sort of family... ya know, the kissing cousins kind?

Four years ago, we had gotten together for my grandfather's 90th bday party in the same grange hall. No one seemed so eager to talk to me. No one told me I was beautiful. I look at the family photos from that day and I don't even recognize myself now....

When I look in the mirror I see ME. Sometimes I think I'm still too heavy or don't like the fact that I don't have firm boobies anymore or too much skin around my middle and inner thigh area. But my face... I RECOGNIZE my face. I RECOGNIZE my lifestyle that I have regained.

I now have two horses. One is a yearling thoroughbred gelding who I measured yesterday at 16hh tall and he's still growing. The newest addition is a retired racehorse who earned money every race she ever entered until her last race in February of 2008 when she allegedly fell on the track and didn't finish the race. I watched the video of the race. She was fighting for the lead for most of the race and then all of a sudden.... she was gone and didn't place. It didn't show her falling. The owner/trainer just threw her away. She was bought as a broodmare and foaled a colt in 2008. I bought her in Feb of 2007. She has a bum knee. She was black... but now has sunshine bleaching her coat out. She never was socialized with other horses other than racing against them. She was in a state of shock and fear for the first few weeks she came to me. Now, she's loving and calm and good. My daughter rides her bareback with a halter. I lay over her withers and rub her neck and tell her how gorgeous she is. She will never be abused again. Never forced to race and be thrown away. She has a new life... and so do I. Her name is Magic now.. it used to be Fast Date.

I train horses now. I take horses from the race track and teach them that they can have a new life. They can develop new habits and try to forget the nightmares of their past.  I am going to start a rescue for racehorses and am seeking others willing to donate to my cause. So far, I have a racehorse trainer/owner willing to give me his throw away horses and give me supplements and feed for them so they don't have to go to slaughter. A person with a heart.  I haven't started this organization yet, but I'm in the planning stages. I drive almost 70 miles every day to go to my horses. I board them away from where I live at my friend's ranch in Byron California.

My husband bought a Harley Davidson in January. It feels great that my ass fits on it and I get to enjoy the freedom of the road with him. We are taking it to Las Vegas April 19th for a few days... fun fun.

My diet? HAHA... Changing .... I had Gallbladder surgery less than a week ago. NOW I dump more. Now grease doesn't agree with me at all. I never had a problem with fatty foods before. Now, I'll be losing more weight. That is fine by me... as long as I'm not gaining any. Still not many sensations of hunger. Occasionally I will feel the "burning" of true hunger pangs.

I can eat normal portions ........... for a thin person. I prefer to eat meat. This is in my favor.

I'm still looking for a job. This economy really hurts here in Stockton Ca. But if I get my rescue going and get donations maybe that can be my new career. Not for Profit, but enough to pay myself for my time and serve a great cause.

Save the horses!!!

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I GAINED WEIGHT

Dec 31, 2008


I made too much candy and I sampled it. I nibbled on this and that and enjoyed creamy sauces and decadent deserts. Now, I am paying the price.

It's hard enough to lose this weight when I can tolerate all foods and my pouch can hold over a cup of food now. I don't get enough exercise and I've been suffering depression because in this economy and where I live (Stockton Ca) it is hard to find a job in HR or anywhere really.

Tomorrow is the beginning of a brand new year. I'm wiping out alcohol, carbs and measuring foods again. We'll see if I can get to 150 by my 41st birthday in July.

Happy New Year everyone.

Jen
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One Year Surgiversary and Thanksgiving Holiday

Nov 30, 2008

I went home for the first time in five months since my move to California. (home is Eastern Oregon and SW Washington) We traveled almost 2000 miles for the entire trip by vehicle. My husband and I shared driving.

The day we left (Tuesday before turkey day) I bought two pair of skinny jeans. One from Torrid size 12T. The other from Ross, size 13 Juniors. I looked FANTASTIC, and my family and friends really could see that I have lost more weight since the move.

Thanksgiving day was my One Year Anniversary from RNY. Saturday night on the freeway home at 10pm I stopped and got a starbucks coffee drink from the can... the kind with milk and sugar in it? Well, My POUCH still works... I DUMPED within an hour of drinking it. Ooooh thank GOD we got to a rest area in time.

I lost more weight over this holiday being busy and just not being around food a whole lot. I rode a horse for the first time in years on my surgiversary. To think, one year ago, I would not have dared punish a poor horse by putting my FAT ass on it's back. Now I can jump right on and ride like the wind.

I still have some chub to lose, but if I were to stay right here for the rest of my life, I would be HAPPY.

I'm gonna work at losing another 15 lbs before the end of the year. It will be difficult and I'll have to seriously diet, but .... oooh to look good in a little black dress for New Years Eve... wouldn't it be wonderful?

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