juelesisfree
Wow.. Whats my story? Well I am sitting here at 3:30am the day before I am banded for life feeling nascious to start. My journey has beeen a semi-long one and I am ready to have a new lease on life! My self esteem faded some 8 years ago when it hit me how much bigger I was then all of my friends. Weight has been an issue most of my life but I never really looked at myself as much different from my friends utill I had a breakdown. I came to the realization that I was uncertain who I was, as if I lost me some how. I have spent the last 8 years trying to build myself back up but I am missing an essiential part of what used to make me... ME, my selfesteem. I am now moving in the right direction to take my life back! I want to take control again and this is my first step! As I loose weight I will make sure to keep a log of all things that I like about myself or start to notice about me. Currently it is very hard to find physical attributes but thats not what makes a whole package anyways so I will start small. I like the fact that I have made a commitment to see a therapist on a weekly basis she is awesome and helps me take steps to better myself. I look forward to continuing our sessions as I embark on this new journey!
I recently lost my sister and mother to Melanoma (Cancer). It was a very difficult time but it opened my eyes to the importance of my life to my son, who is 6, and helped me realize that I needed to get healthy. One of my mothers last conversations with me before she passed was to promise that I would loose the weight. I agreed, she has been gone since August and in the beginning I used food as a comfort but at the end of the year I decided to pursue WLS! I felt so excited since I made my decision and have been working on losing weight since.. I am currently down 20lbs! I love the fact that they are pounds that I will never gain again! I can't wait to continue this journey after banding. I feel positive and am thankful that there are support groups such as this one that I can share with! I look forward to updating my profile with all of my results!
