Just writing

Mar 20, 2023

Today was my appointment with my regular doctor. Told her about whats happened and she was so happy for me. I do love my doctor. She is going to help me with the 50lbs I need to lose before surgery and with the having to quit smoking. The only thing I found odd at the appointment was the scale. Its the same scale that my gastric doctor uses. So last week I weighted 426 but today, literaly a week later, I weight 416. There is no way that I lost 10lbs in a week. I didnt really change anything. I cut soda out after my appointment last week. I had a headache for three days but got over it. But is it possible that I lost 10lbs in a week just by cutting soda out? Maybe I just don't want to believe that its really possible. I'm still torn that this is all a dream and that its going to be ripped away from me at any moment. Which than makes me go down that spiral of why try, if its all going to vanish whats the point? I need to stop the spiral. writing out this blog helps. It gets everything that im feeling out and than makes me face it. I can do this, I can do this!!

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