I have always had a larger lower half as long as I can remember, well it just runs in the family. But I never really considered myself  "obese". (that word I still cant seem to label myself with) After having my son in 1998, I gained alot of weight, I went from 5'2 1/2" aprox 135 lbs, to 190. You would think that I would at least loose the weight of the baby...but I didn't!!!I was so unhappy with myself. I didn't realize that after I had my son, I continued to gain weight, until I hit about 220. Then I got pregnant with my daughter and had her in 2002. I didn't gain too much weight with her, but I still gained a little. 

I have tried EVERY diet known to man. I did really well on Weight Watchers and was so happy when I lost 40 pounds in 2005. Then I had a tragity in my life, my seven year old son who had brain surgery for a cancerous tumer, was hit by a car and passed away. Needless to say, I no longer cared about my weight loss, and I gained it all back... plus some. I've joined the gym with a personal trainer...lost absolutely nothing. I took diet pills (phendermine) that my doctor prescribed along with water pills...they worked (although short lived) and I lost 20+ pounds within a month...but I couldn't sleep, I felt like I was taking speed, and I began to break out on my face really bad. So I have been trying to do Weight Watchers by my self several times, but I cant seem to keep it up. It goes good for a week or so with the tracking, and then...I get frustrated and give up. I will loose a couple of pounds, and gain it back...this seems to be a cycle. I need to take control of my life. I need the tools that will assist me. 

I am looking at my options. This site helps tramendously. Any feedback will help. I need to stay away from the Obits...they are scarry. I remember reading about one lady who, someone told her that she shouldn't read them, and she had the same surgeon that another person who passed did, and they told her it was rare.  She is now in the Obits. Lord, don't let this happen to me.

"The Lord is my shepard, I shall not want"

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Aug 15, 2007
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