Justeace
Goals!
Jul 28, 2008
1. Buy clothes from Wal-Mart (I know you fashionistas out there will be like Wal-Mart, gurl you need to stop, but when you've only shopped at The Avenue, Lane Bryant, and through the Internet for the past xx years you always wish you could go into a store with regular sizes and pick-up something and wear it. Did that!
2. Get a new job that makes me happier. Did that!
3. Walk up the stairs without holding onto the rail. Did that!
4. Attend ballroom dance classes. Signed up for ballroom dance classes today and I'll be taking my first class in 2 weeks. Doing that!
5. Ride on the amusement park rides. Rode 2 this weekend and 1 several weeks ago. I don't like the swings. Did that!
6. Cut down on daily snacks. 1 yoguart, 1 fruit, 1 100-calorie snack. Sometimes hard to stick to but I've gotten better. Work in progress but Did that!
I have other goals and dreams but for now I'm trying to keep positive and remember my goal of 100 lbs by my birthday. I'm losing slowly but I'm losing and that's all that matters. I hadn't updated in a while so I thought I'd drop some thoughts and put in writing what's giggling around in my head.
Blessed be....Justeace
Some MF's always got something to say....
May 06, 2008
You know this is tough enough without having people around always butting in and no they don't have a right to but in. This is my life and I'm doing damn good. Not as fantastic as other people but damn good considering where I was before and I don't need someone making me feel bad with their stupid opinions. Sometimes distance between the ones we love is really the best thing.
Blessed be....Justeace
Look Who's Back
Apr 14, 2008
I'm running, well ok jogging on the treadmill and I actually like it. I like seeing my heartrate go up to the above level on the tracker and it's all in red.
Thank goodness spring has sprung because I couldn't take another cold day. I bought a pair of rollerskates and I'm trying to get back into jumping rope. I figure if I liked all these things when I was a kid and skinny as all get out why not pull out some old skool fun and burn off this fat. I bike is also being eyed but I think I'll stick with the skating and jumping rope. I really can't believe I'm running on a treadmill in the middle of the gym and rush hour. I never would have done that before because I figured everyone was watching my fat a** and now I don't care. It feels good so I run.
One last update, drum roll please. I can now fit into jeans sold at Wal-Mart. I'm actually going to buy jeans that cost $18.99 and feel great. I'll have to take the waist in but they are black, stretch jeans and I can fit them. I can see that finish line and I can't wait to meet the woman on the other side that has been waiting for me since I was 11.
Blessed be....Justeace
Keep Going and Change that Attitude....
Oct 07, 2007
Upside is that I'm almost comfortably into a size 28, considering I use to wear a size 32 that's a huge improvement. I'm still kinda bummed I haven't lost as much weight as other but maybe the bright side is because I'm losing slowly I won't have as much extra skin to remove , I hope. Changing my attitude has helped me understand that the new job I have is something I need to get where I want to be. "It's a means to an end to lead me to what I want." I put up with college for years I can work two years until I have my next career goal achieved. Other than that I'm doing well and loving life for once. I still want a man! Not need a man but I want men specifically to hang with, non-committal fun. I've been a good girl long enough, I just want to be Angelina Jolie and get what I want and see you when I see you. Don't call me because I probably won't call you kind of thing. Yeah right now that sounds hot!
Well, that's all for now. SoapNet is playing Days so I have to get back and word is Lucky will finally find out Jake is not his son on GH and I can't wait for that. Go Liz and Jason, down with Lucky. Ex-Druggie/Cop doesn't deserve any sympathy after two affairs and felonies that he should have went to jail for. Yes I know it's a soap opera but hey at this point they are more exciting then my life so why not enjoy.
Blessed be and peace out...Justeace
Everything's New
Aug 07, 2007
The new job is....well a new job. It fit all the things I was looking for but I forgot to mention in my pray an industry that really interests me. Well you can't have everything so I'm going to do it above my ability and keep my eyes out for opportunity because you never know when she's going to knock.
Wow moment....I not only fit in the seats at the movie theater I actually have room leftover. The knee pain has decreased significantly. I still walk up the stairs slowly but I walk up and down them using both legs instead of one.
Oh and movie reviews, The Bourne Ultimatium is visually amazing and once you leave the theater you want to go out and join a secret covert government agency with more ethical ambition but still it's the thought running through your head. The Bratz avoid this garbarage as much as possible unless you have a little princess in your family that just has to go see it then grin and bare it. Coming soon American Gangster with the one and only Denzel Washington. I saw the previews at The Bourne Ultimatium and man that looks good, can't wait to see it.
Well that's all for now so Blessed be....Justeace
Change is gonna come
Jun 10, 2007
I'm also buying a new house and selling my current one. The market isn't as good as it was a couple of years ago but we've done so many upgrades to our house it shouldn't take long to sell it.
Weightloss is going well. Not as fast as I wish it would come off but everyone is always impatient about weightloss. So far I've lost 46 lbs. and counting. I've really got a pretty good handle on eating and I've just normally given up things that I think will cause me to get sick and I don't even miss them. It's true you do something for 3 weeks and it becomes a habit. I haven't had steak, bread, hamburger, corn, pork, pasta or rice since February 2007 and even though I might think about them once in a while it's not like I'm craving them anymore. My hunger hasn't returned, I mean I eat but I'm never hungry anymore. The funnies thing is that my stomach (right-side) makes all kinds of noise now. I don't really care but it's going to be funny when someone else hears. I just ignore it but others will definately be like that girl needs to eat something. LOL!
I'm not good with change, I like things to stay that way they are and I'll fight change tooth and nail but eventually I get over it and accept the new reality. I guess I was right 2007 is going to be a much different year than I have had in a very long time.
Blessed be....Justeace
Week 11
May 21, 2007
Went back to work May 1st, I should have stayed home. I obviously forgot how annoying and expensive it is to drive to work everyday. Other than that there are some new prospects on the horizon, job wise. Hopefully by the beginning of June I'll have moved onto to the next level in my career and will seriously be contemplating going for my MBA/JD. There is this amazing program at my alma matar where you can get your MBA and JD at the same time. I would love to have both. Not that I want to be a lawyer but knowing the ins and outs of the law can't ever hurt.
Other than that I thank God for the weight I have lost and the weight I plan to lose. I thank him/her for my health and so far complication free recovery.
Blessed be to all....Justeace
Week 7 & day 7 (74 days)
Apr 25, 2007
Bree, my pouch/stomach, and I are learning to get along and I've lost weight so that makes me feel better. It's been nice outside so feeling the sun has made all of this much more bearable. It's time for new beginnings with my weightloss has come not so much a realization but a revelation that it's time to move on in all aspects of my life. I've been standing still instead of living and that's not acceptable. With some hardwork and determination next month will be a time of dramatic change and growth.
Until then....Blessed be, Justeace.
3/29/07 - Grits don't like me
Mar 29, 2007
I've determined that grits don't like me anymore. Too bad because I did like them before. I didn't eat them all the time but every now and then they were wonderful to eat. Well after the naseau I felt after eating them and the PA saying that they probably expanded too much in my stomach and that's where the pain came from I decided that I won't be messing with them anymore.
Feeling good today. The sadness that I was feeling because I couldn't eat anything has finally subsided and I finally feel ok about the fact I'll be able to eat more real foods on Sunday. I haven't had that pain in my chest in a couple of days and I ate eggs, tunafish salad and chicken without feeling nauseous or sick today. The sunshine outside has really helped more than I ever thought it could. I still wish I was in Disney but CT's not that bad right now. I have to work on getting in my execising in every single day and not just every now and then. The first 6-months are the most critical for me to lose weight after the surgery and I'm working on losing 100lbs. by my 4-month anniversary. That's my first major goal. I have a lot of weight to lose and want to do it as quickly as possible so I can go from flab to fab in record time.
Blessed be....Justeace
3/26/07
Mar 26, 2007
3/26/07 - 350
3/19/07 - 355
3/01/07 - 367.9
02/19/07 - 374.3
Blessed be....Justeace