2 1/2 months post op...

Feb 19, 2009

I feel amazing!  I'm 60 lbs down and almost 4 sizes gone.  I have never been as happy or felt as healthy in my life.

I have been sick since the beginning of January - sinus issues that look like they are related to allergies.  I've had terrible allergies for years, and wonder how things will change with weight loss - so far it has gotten a little better, but the sick thing has gotten old.  I thought I had bronchitis, but it was an upper respiratory infection and then it came back with a vengence about 3 weeks later.  Now I'm being sent to an allergist.

Regardless, I'll take sick anyday to still feel how amazing I do with the weight gone.  I feel pretty, I feel attractive, and am amazed at how much people have noticed - I guess when I look at myself in the mirror every day I don't notice as much.

Finding clothes that fit without paying a fortune is a pain in the ass but it's not a bad problem to have.  I just wish I was having a little more success - my outfits are few and far between for work.  Just tried to set up a clothing swap thing, so we'll see what happens.

I've been busting tail in the gym when I've been there, but I've missed a lot of workouts from feeling so crappy and not being able to breath due to being sick.  It's been driving me crazy - when I'm not there, all I think about is that I'm going to fall into old habits if I don't get back there.  And then I sit on the couch, thinking I can actually feel my stomach expanding again....retarded, right?

I'm still learning to eat...my weight loss has continued, but I'm guilty of cheating a little bit pretty much every day (not eating bread or some sort of starch has proven to be harder than I thought, simply because of how often I eat out for lunch due to the type of work I do).  I'm still making good choices, and for the most part, if I do eat it, it's a slice of bread on  a sandwich and I try to eat as little as possible, but it pisses me off that I am even doing it.  And what pisses me off even more is that it's subconscious...i'm so used to being able to eat that stuff in the past, that even though I know better, it's often like I go on autopilot and order - and like I said, it's not like I'm ordering bad or anything, I'm still making very good, healthy choices, but it's like the "don't eat the bread" part of my brain often goes out the window.  Anyway, I'm trying and have asked my husband to ride me about it, even if I am mean back to him (which I probably will be, but it's the bread deprivity talking...lol).  Other than that, I'm doing pretty good. 

I feel like my portions are a bit larger than they should be, and I monitor myself pretty closely.  I'm quickly learning my body and when I'm getting full - and I'm pretty good at listening for the most part.  There's been a few times I didn't stop when I should have, but I learned my lesson when I was uncomfortable afterwards.  It's more learning each food too than anything.  Something I've learned to watch is t hat when I begin to feel statisfied and start to feel full, stop.  Once I stand up, I end up feeling even more full than I thought I was because everything shifts.

I'm cold quite a bit now, and I'm sure part of that is lack of nutrition and body fat.  I drink a fair amount of coffee, which causes me to be quite ravenous around lunch time.  I don't still make good choices, but I do usually have that moment where I hit the wall and have to eat NOW!!  However, it's also helped keep me regular since I am not very good at drinking the fiber supplement.  I've incorporated other extremely high fiber items in my diet to compensate for not taking the benefiber...there's nothing wrong with it, it's just that I'm not very good at remembering unless I build it into a shake, and I haven't been drinking the shakes because I've become VERY intolerant of milk (not to mention it's not helping the phlem from the sinus situation).

Anyway, all in all I'm fabulous, happy, driven, and proud of my accomplishments.  Every day is a new adventure!!

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