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I was sick as a dog for about a week.  Thought I had the flu or a virus only my body didn’t ache and I wasn’t really throwing up that much just nauseous and dry heaving (which is sometimes worse)  I started to feel bad on a Thursday and by Saturday it got so bad that I slept all day Sat, Sun, and Mon.  Finally got up around 5pm and went to my local hospital who of course drew some blood, gave me some meds for nausea and told me to follow up with my doctor.  I already had a follow up appnt scheduled for the next day so when I got there doc decided it best since I live 2 hours from him, to keep me in the hospital overnight for some tests and whatnot. Turns out I had a stomach ulcer. “Who whooda thought” I never knew that an ulcer could make someone feel so bad.  He hooked me up with some meds and now I feel wonderful again.  I have lost a total of 125-126 lbs since Feb of this year and I couldn’t be more blessed.  I love my surgeon and all of his staff, they are all so sweet and most helpful.   Happy Holidays to my OH Family!!!

I just fit into my daughter's size 14 pants!!!  Of course she looks way better in them than I do b/cuz she doesn't have what I have hanging out of the sides but still....size 14!!! Whoo Hoo that feels good.  116 lbs lost so far.  I have about another 45 to go!!

It has been awhile since I have posted.  A lot has been going on.  I know we all say that but I literally mean it.

 

 I lost my only nephew on August 13^th, 2009 because of someone’s stupidity.  It was his 21^st Birthday.  Life was just getting started for him. He was at his apartment with his roommate and his roommate thought that it would be cool to bring out a 22 rifle and start waving it around at people.  My nephew told him to put it away several times but the kid said “No it’s Cool, It’s on safety” and pulled the trigger.  It hit my nephew in the back of the head. From what we have been told, he survived the ambulance ride but was pronounced dead when they arrived at the hospital.

 

We can’t get any clear answers about anything because the kid who shot him is the nephew of the chief of police here where we live.  Nor has anything happened to the kid.  They are trying to rule it as an accident and sweep everything under the rug like nothing ever happened. The sheriff, of course, is the person who releases information to the press so at first they were trying to make it look as though it was just as much my nephews fault. Our local radio station was putting it out that they were both “playing around” with the gun when it disengaged.  There was another kid there who witnessed everything and wrote a statement about what happened.  My nephew never had his hands on the gun so we called the radio station and raised hell so they changed it to “Timmy Holbrook was holding the gun when it disengaged and fatally struck Joshua O’Conner.” 

 

So help me he will pay for what he did.  Accident or not he is old enough to know better than to play with guns.  It’s an accident when a 5 year old plays with a gun and shoots and kills someone.  It’s ignorance when someone his age does it.  I can’t help but to be pissed.  I live in a small town and as with any small towns the police for the most part are corrupt.  But it doesn’t matter to lawyers who your family is so Justice will be served before this is all over with.  I will try to keep all of you updated.  My OH family has been here for me when no one else has…..

I went to the doctor this week and all of my blood work came back fine.  Everything is normal.   I have lost 54 lbs in 3 months.  Yeah!  I feel so much better.  I am going to start walking on my lunch break 2-3 times a week.  I just got back from walking and man am I tired.  It is so hot here in GA but the good thing about this GA heat is that it makes it easier for me to get in my water for the day. 

Well until next time.

Love you guys,
Kimberly

Not much to report.  The hole in my stomach is finally closed.  I have lost 46-47 lbs.  I keep going between 289 and 290.  I am already at a stall and it's very depressing and discouraging.  I want to be small enough to be able to wear a bathing suit by this summer without looking to scary.  I want to take the kids to Six Flags by Sept. or Oct and I don't want to have any fear of whether or not I will fit in the rides.  I need to set some goals for myself.  I need to start a good exercise program.  I need to drink more water.  I do good about getting my protein because I have been lucky with being able to eat pretty much all meats.  Sometimes that worries me because I think that I am supposed to feel bad after eating like most of the people that I read about and because I don't I think that maybe my surgery isn't going to work.  I guess I just still have in my head all of the past attempts at losing weight and how I have failed so many times.  I am trying so hard to get out of thinking like this.  I know the amount of weight I've lost is good considering that it's only taken me 2 1/2 months to lose it but I'm still scared that it will stop and not start back and this is the most that I am going to lose.  Crazy I know, considering all of the success stories that I have come across.  I have to do some serious work on myself....

Sorry that it has been a while since my last post but I was out of work for 7 weeks and I don't have Internet axcess at home.  I had my lap. gastric bypass on 2/2/09 and everything went fine as far as the surgery but when I went back for my 3 week check up I had an infection at one of the incision sites.  The doctor cut me back open and let it drain in the office but because I live 2 hours from his office he thought it best to put me back in the hospital for a round of antibiotics.  I stayed in the hospital another 3 days.  But it's better to be safe than sorry, right!  He sent me home with a hole in my stomach about 3 inches long and 6 inches deep that I had to pack full of gauze 3 times a day.  What fun that was or is rather because I am still doing it.  But the hole is almost completely well now and I have lost a total of 38 lbs.  My surgeon is an angel and has taken such good care of me.  And his staff is pretty awesome too.  I couldn't ask for anything better.  I can't wait to see myself 6-8 months from now. 

Thanks to my OH fam for all of the support!

Well....tomorrow is the big day.  I am so excited.  Still not nervous though, just disappointed that my Mother will not be there with me.  But I know she will be there in spirit looking out for me. 

I can hardly wait to see what a skinny me will look like.  Here goes...when I come back, I will be on the losing side.  Thank you everyone for all of  your support!  God Bless!!!

So here I am, 5 more days to go until my RNY.  I went for all my pre-ops yesterday and everything is set.  My surgery is scheduled for  Feb 2nd at 1:45pm.  I love my surgeon (Dr. Blaney)  he is so sweet and he has the tendency to take some of the edge off.  Which I can still say that I'm not nervous about the surgery itself.  I've had my gallbladder removed and it was not fun at all.  That was 4-5 yrs ago and I still remember the pain.  It's after the surgery that I am worried about.  I'm scared that I might get something stuck from not chewing.  I'm scared about the fact that I will throw up when something doesn't agree with me.  I fear that I might suffer from uncontrollable bouts of crying, which happens to some people. And I'm scared about the nausea that I am going to have.  There is not another person in this world who hates the feeling of being neuseated more than me.  I get real still and start to sweat and refuse to speak.  All I want to do is swallow, swallow, swallow in hopes that I have swallowed it all away. Which has never worked by the way but it's what I do.   I have all of these fears but not one is strong enough to stand in the way of a happier, healthier, smaller me. 

Lapband, RNY, OH, Support Peeps and Surgeons ROCK .  I can't wait to be on the losing side.  Wish me luck and God be with me.

FYI, 
If your insurance company is requesting that you do a 6 month diet, make sure you get clarification on what the protocol is for the diet.  I was denied twice initially because the insurance company added a clause last year (2007) that stated you have to either maintain or lose weight on the 6 month diet and I gained the last two months because my meds were changed so much and I quit smoking.   I called the insurance co. twice to ask about the diet  before hand and was told both times that there wasn't anything specific about the diet so long as you do it because it shows that you are trying.  So I highly, HIGHLY recommend that you ask for a copy of the policy/procedures rather than taking a reps word for it over the phone.  Granted most of them mean well but if they don't have up to date info then they can't give it to you.  And even if the policies/procedures that they send you doesn't list specifically that you have to lose or maintain weight you should probably do so anyway.  Very confusing because in one sense it shows them that you can stick to a strict diet but in the other it shows that you do have the ability to lose the weight if you really try.   Bottom line...check, check, and re-check!!!

I finally got my approval letter in the mail last week.... now I can breathe.  Monday of this week I was told by my rep at the surgeons office that my surgery date will be Feb 9th.  A few days later I got an email that doc will be out of town on the 9th so I may be able to get Feb 2nd if not I will have to wait until Feb 23rd when he returns.  You know I was sweatin' bullets while waiting to hear back from her with a confirmation of the date.  I found out 2 days ago that I got the spot for Feb 2nd.  I haven't been this happy since my children were born.  I know I will get nervous the closer I get to Feb 2nd but for now I am enjoying these warm fuzzy feelings and I am back to my old self, the self who always put on a smile with each new day. 
God is Soooo Good!