Countdown to Freedom~~5 days!

Jan 28, 2009

So here I am, 5 more days to go until my RNY.  I went for all my pre-ops yesterday and everything is set.  My surgery is scheduled for  Feb 2nd at 1:45pm.  I love my surgeon (Dr. Blaney)  he is so sweet and he has the tendency to take some of the edge off.  Which I can still say that I'm not nervous about the surgery itself.  I've had my gallbladder removed and it was not fun at all.  That was 4-5 yrs ago and I still remember the pain.  It's after the surgery that I am worried about.  I'm scared that I might get something stuck from not chewing.  I'm scared about the fact that I will throw up when something doesn't agree with me.  I fear that I might suffer from uncontrollable bouts of crying, which happens to some people. And I'm scared about the nausea that I am going to have.  There is not another person in this world who hates the feeling of being neuseated more than me.  I get real still and start to sweat and refuse to speak.  All I want to do is swallow, swallow, swallow in hopes that I have swallowed it all away. Which has never worked by the way but it's what I do.   I have all of these fears but not one is strong enough to stand in the way of a happier, healthier, smaller me. 

Lapband, RNY, OH, Support Peeps and Surgeons ROCK .  I can't wait to be on the losing side.  Wish me luck and God be with me.

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