My crazy life

Aug 24, 2011

I am so excited for my NUT appointment on Friday, just hoping it doesn't get derailed by Hurricane Irene (oh the joys of living in FL!)... I have been so busy with school starting this week that the week has been flying by.  I am glad, because I want to see her NOW and get started! 

I have been a little "bad" this week.  Because I plan on devoting my time, energy and willpower to what the NUT tells me on Friday, I made my husband go out to eat a few times this week.  Not binging or anything, but I wanted to get in a few things that I #1 will NEVER eat again, and #2 won't eat for a looooooong time!  We definitely had Five Guys burgers and fries (love their fries) and had my Texas Roadhouse rolls.  I also had some snickers ice cream bars and got in some mexican.  I did not over endulge, or eat more than I normally do, but I am commited to make this work.  I don't want to cry in a few months that I never had that one last experience with McDonald's fries (also had that this week ;). 

Now that I have made my plans and started on my journey, I feel so much happier and in front of my husband I feel more confident and sure of myself... maybe because I finally have control over my life and weight again (even though we are still pre-surgery).  But I feel like at school and in public it is worse.  Maybe because I know this time next year I will be *hopefully* half the person I am now, it is hard to have to walk alongside my skinny friends.  I hate those little desks in the classrooms I have to squeeze myself into when every little toothpick in the room has a foot to spare.... I want to be them (ok, or close to it ;).  Ready for the rest of the time to fly by and get a surgery date.... then I will feel more confident and know that this is really truly happening!

School is going to kill me this semester.  I am looking over the syllabi for the 3 classes I am taking (10 credit hours) plus I have a part-time internship that I am going to have to do so much for.  I am already stressing, BUT on a positive note, the more I have to do, the less time I will have to eat :) and the faster time will fly by until December, when I am hoping to have surgery!!!! 

On that note, I have to get myself out the door and off to class, I do NOT like the hour or more drive to class (not fun), ironically, I love my two hour drive to my sugreons office though, go figure!  Can't wait until Friday!!!

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