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Date	Weight	Pounds Lost	Total Pounds Lost	BMI
4/14/05	335	start	start	54.1
6/21/05	325.5	9.5	9.5	52.5
2/15/07	345	Highest Preop	Preop Wt	55.7
3/21/07	303	42	42	48.9
5/16/07	282	21	63	45.5
6/26/07	260	22	85	42
8/11/07	244	16	101	39.4
10/19/07	232	12	113	37.4
11/13/07	224	8	121	36.0
3/7/09	178	46	167	28.7

Ok, I admit it, I got surgery, got thinner, got healthier... and lost some of my bad habits, including SITTING for hours on end at a computer for FUN. I'm a much more "up and attem" kinda gal now... so I got a request to update on me, here it is. :)

Today is 7 months & 2 weeks... I started at 345 lbs, I am now 232 lbs!! So I'm down 113 lbs from the start. I started in a size 30, and as of 2 months ago, I'm bordering 16 & 18. I haven't seen any further drop in size, but I think that's because the panni is just about as small as it's going to get. I'm looking into plastics now, because I expect that if I had that part done... I'd lose another 40 lbs of skin, and I would be only 20 lbs from my goal!!

As for what's different? WOW... everything!! I don't get out of breath just walking, I FEEL sexy (despite the ugly skin, which I hide well). I am active and very rarely stay home now (thus the dramatic decrease in my online time). I am working full time as a Bariatric Coordinator now and LOVING IT!!! My whole life is about this surgery, but it's a GOOD thing, because it reminds me daily to stay on track, take my vits (mental block against those, it's a struggle), and get in plenty of protein and water...

The most satisfying part? That my son is not ashamed to hang out with me now... and he's 15!! The next most satisfying part... is being able to help others to reach these same new "firsts" that I am finding so much delight in.

Well, this week is 4 months, it just doesn't seem so long! As of this morning, I'm in a size 18, and feeling good. I can't even begin to describe how pleased I am with the scale, and with my clothes... but... it's odd to realize that as much as things have changed... myself, who I am, the person I have become, has not changed very much. It's very anticlimactic.

I guess I had this concept that *I* would be a better person, happier, and more pleased with myself, after I lost weight... today it occurred to me, that I am no more happy with myself, nor less so, than before. My life is not different in the ways I thought it would be. I expected I would be more confident, more satisfied with myself and my accomplishments, and in general that I would like myself more. I suppose to some extent that is true, because I no longer hate myself for my lack of control. Yes I'm a control freak, and the only thing I could not control, was my eating and my weight. I've finally gained control of what I eat, and for that I have gained a bit of self respect that I was missing before. 

I guess my ramblings are my way of saying that my surgery was more of a band-aid, than a cure... it helped me heal, and protected me from exposure (yes, to those terrible foods)... but the actual healing, I did for myself. The "fix it" I was looking for in my life.... was me..... and it took me a long time to wake up to the fact that if I'm unhappy with something in my life, *I* have the responsibility to decide if/what action is needed... and do it for my own dang self and stop whining to people who aren't interested anyway.

Ok, so much for a lazy weekend... deep musing ramblings.... not getting in the way of my day... I'm headed out to go fishing with my family. 

Make your own joy!!

Eight weeks out and down a total of 60 lbs!! I hit 285!!

I'm so shocked and pleased, it's just amazing how well this is working. My former clothes are falling off, I can literally slide my jeans up and down without unzipping/unbuttoning!!

So now time to buy some clothes... I fit in a 2X today and was absolutely amazed.... I even got on an XL jacket at the uniform shop!!

Ok so I'm 4 weeks out today and doing fabulous!! I can eat anything I've tried (cept eggs and cheez-its) and I can proudly say I've not tried sugar higher than 5g yet!! I've had low carb yogurts, and still doing well with my frozen strawberries for dessert. I have really enjoyed my 2 oz cottage cheese with 2 slices of peaches (in natural juices, not syrup). I am doing really well... I wish the scale would move a bit more, but that's ok too, since I'm 301 now. I'm down 44 lbs from my highest weight and feeling great!!

The one thing I am having a small amount of trouble with is maintaining regularity... I'm on miralax twice a week and I really don't like the idea, but without it I don't go at all... at least this way I go about every 4-5 days. I tried the metamucil fiber wafers, but wow, I eat them and then I can't fit in a meal. :( I dunno yet how to work this one out.

Well I hit the 3 week mark today and I'm doing great. I'm officially tolerating most solid foods (well so far only eggs were unpleasant). It's been a blessing I could not describe. I'm learning to eat in smaller amounts and picking foods much better. I'm actually able to say NO to chocolate and other stuff that I forgot were in the house.

When I hit a "desperate for sweets" spot today, I had 2 whole strawberries and a tsp of splenda tossed in the bullet with 1/4 c water and I made a great fruit only version of a sherbert. I'm quite pleased with myself for passing up the chocolate kisses!

Kat

I have moved into puree items just a bit before advised, but I feel very ready for it and haven't had issues with nausea or vomiting at all. This has greatly helped my spirits, as did stepping on a scale and finding out that I'm down 32 lbs now :) I feel some difference in my clothes but it's much better to put a number to it.

32 lbs, gone forever!!

Ok, here it is, the emotional downside to all this... I'm cooking (for relatives) serving, and it's killing me... I see why the psych stuff is so vital now... heck it would be too easy for someone who is unstable to just give up, not eat, not drink, and suicide by negligence. 

I am getting all my water in, cannot stand crystal lite, water sensations, flavored waters, etc... weird cuz I loved them before... now I just drink plain water, and I'm sooo sick of drinking all day every day... I need something to CHEW...

So I gave in and had 5 cheez-it's and WOW, did I dump bad... I was soooo sick. I know that's a good thing, but it just pushed me further down... I have many stressors regarding job loss and such, but I have just found myself with such a down slide I am glad I have hubby here every day to keep cheering me up :(

Doing great, no signs of problems, up walking having a great time, and feeling very little pain.... TY liquid vicodin :)

I made it!! Sore and tired and nauseated, but I'm here on the loser side!! Doggone thirsty though... no water till leak test tommorrow! Time to sleep it off and pretend I don't notice my lips cracking from the lack of water...