Quiet Days
Its been a long time since I've been here. My court case has been settled. Done. Still slowly losing weight. Grdaughter is on a traveling fastpitch softball tournament team. She's 13. School will be starting here on the 2nd. Back to the ol' routine. School, baseball fields. I do need those lil' goals in my life. But I need to make some for myself. Hmm. Besides losing weight. I do need to get back to my groups.
April 7,2008
Wow its been awhile since I journaled here. The holidays come and went. The new year came in just as its suppose to. My medical malpractice suit I filed in the case of my daughter, Tawny, is almost over. We've had to go to mediation arbitration for a out of court settlement. I WON!!!
But it will never bring back my daughter but she is happy knowing her girls will be taken care of with the settlement. I have been diagnosed with recurrent depression, anxiety disorder and panic attacks with agoraphobia. I don't remember if I mentioned that before. I stopped going to counseling cause I got tired talking about myself and everything else. Fastpitch softball has started again for Savannah. She is on her uncles team this year until she turn 17, 4 more years. Hopefully she and the team will make it to the world series while she is still playing. My weight is slowly coming off again. I've lost 9 lbs. since January. Well, I think I got caught up here for awhile.
Oct. 6, 2007
Wow Its been awhile since I've been here. What a slacker I am. My weight hasn't changed no gain, no loss. Going to start seeing my nutritionist again. Depression plays alot on me. Now I already new this but its been confirmed, I am depressed, have anxiety and panic attacks with agoraphobia. Thats what the counselor says. I knew about a couple of those thngs. Geeze I need to get this life of mine together.
April 27, 2007
Today I went to see my nut. and it was my last day. I am trying it on my own again. I will call her once a month to check in. I really believe she cares about people and their health. Not someone who is just doing this cause its just her job. Personable. Well, I lost another 3 lbs. Thats a total of 33 lbs. of weight I have lost of the 70 lbs. I put back on. Feels good to be on track again. Hope and pray I can do it. I am still seeing my counselor. Here is what my memory recalls: surgery weight - 415
complications-hospital - 460
lowest weight - 285
gained back 70 - 355
current - 322
goal- 200
Wow, what a journey this has been and still is. I know I can, I know I can.......
April 19, 2007
Just a quick jump in here. I went to the dr. today and lost another 2 lbs. in a week. I am so proud of myself. Thats about 30 lbs. since January. (patting myself on back) Now to keep moving on.......
April 14, 2007
I went to the nut yesterday. I lost 4.5 lbs., thats 1.5 lbs. more than at the drs. office. Since I put on weight and started trying to lose again I have lost 28 lbs of the weight I gained. I can definantly tell the difference in my clothes again. I sure like that feeling. My nut is leaving for good in 2 weeks. Thats depressing. Even though its up to me to lose the weight, I feel she is a big part of me losing the gained weight. I hope I like the next one. Today was the softball jamboree for my grdaughters team. She pitched 2 games. She's gonna be an awesome ball player. Next year she moves up to a different age bracket. Today was a very good day. The family together- even my brother has 2 teams playing ball. Sure would be nice to see him and his team go to the world series again. It would be his 3rd time. How cool is that!!!
April 10, 2007
I went to the dr. today. I lost another 3 lbs. Yippy!!! I am seeing my nut on Friday and hopefully the scales will say I lost too. Maybe I will start seeing her every 3 weeks. My grdaughter is here from Bellingham for spring break. Sure is nice to see her. She reminds me of her momma. I wish my asthma would get under control. Well lets see what happens in 3 days. Loser, I wanna be a loser.
April 1, 2007
Well, I went to my nutritionist on Friday, I lost 3 1/2 lbs. Thats 11 1/2 lbs. total in a month. The drs and nutritionists scales are pretty close. I still need to be held accountable for what I am eating. My nut thinks I can go 3 weeks before I have to come back to see her. She is proud of me, I am a little. I could do better.
March 26, 2007
Had a nice bday. Went and had Chinese food, no rice, just veggies and meat. My grdaughter looked beautiful for the Tolo dance. I am going to start seeing my counselor again. Time to deal with painful things in my life. I love to laugh and make others laugh and see others happy. Get too see the nutritionist on Friday. Can't wait. Haven't said that too often.
