6 months and counting

Jul 26, 2009

I'm six months out and I feel NORMAL.  I don't have much problems with things except bread which I try to stay away from.  I may have a small bite or two to satisfy the desire but I'm not missing it all that much.  I'm down 80lbs and I can't believe it.  I catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror or a glass and I don't hardly recognize myself.  I still feel like I'm 200+ lbs, thinking I won't fit into certain areas.  I went shopping this weekend and I bought size 8s.  When I started out I was in 18s and probably really should have been in 20s but frankly I had told myself that I refused to buy clothes that big.  I've went from a 38FF to a 34D.  I can go shopping in my 14 year olds closet   I am still concerned about when I go back to see the doctor in a few weeks that he will think that I have not lost enough.  I'm sure his comment about me being a slow looser was made off handed but it has stuck with me.  I'm not as good about taking my vitimines as I should be.  I'm great about it at work but when I'm at home, frankly I suck.  I still need to get to the gym but I have been taking the stairs at work and I'd like to start going up to the school in the evenings and walking the track.
My very dear friend is in California right now dealing with her husbands estate and she has asked if I would come visit her, she hasn't seen me since April.  I would absolutely love to go out and see her, I just need to get the money together.  She is one of those tall blondes, maybe been 10lbs over ideal in her entire life, seemed to have everything that one could want...you know the kind as an overweight person you would be surprised if they would give you the time of day.  Candy has been my number one cheerleader, even before surgery.  When I had my surgery she asked if I wanted to come to her place (3 hours away) to recover there.  Now that she is going through all of these hard times with the estate I want to go see her, show her how important she is to me, and let her know that she's not alone even though she is half the country away.  I hope everyone has the opportunity to have one really great friend in life that you would go to the ends of the earth for and know that they would do the same for your in a heartbeat, even without asking.

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