kathyb
March 2003
Mar 05, 2003
3/5/03
Three weeks post op and I started back to my normal routine this week. Started back to school yesterday and my job today. Yesterday was a long day - left my house at 7 AM and home at 8:30 PM. Bit too much. Came home and went right to bed. Today I'm still exhausted. I think because I feel OK physically I think I'm OK and forget I just had major surgery. Early night again tonight I'm sure. But I'm feeling OK and still happily losing weight - down 17 pounds. Definitely happy about that!
Three weeks post op and I started back to my normal routine this week. Started back to school yesterday and my job today. Yesterday was a long day - left my house at 7 AM and home at 8:30 PM. Bit too much. Came home and went right to bed. Today I'm still exhausted. I think because I feel OK physically I think I'm OK and forget I just had major surgery. Early night again tonight I'm sure. But I'm feeling OK and still happily losing weight - down 17 pounds. Definitely happy about that!
Feburary 2003
Feb 01, 2003
2/3/03
Well, only one week left and I'm a nervous wreck. I can't wait to get it over with. I had my pre-admission interview and meeting with the anesthesiologist today. All that's left is blood work on Saturday then surgery on Monday. It seemed like it was so far away when I first heard the date and now it seems like it's so soon. I can't wait to get started on the next phase of my life. I'm just nervous about the surgery itself. It would be easier if I had more support. My family doesn't realize how important this is to me. They think I should just diet. I can't get them to realize that dieting doesn't work for me. I can lose the weight but eventually it all comes back - plus some. I've been dieting for 9 months and I've lost 23 pounds this time around. It's not working any more. I can't do it alone. I need the surgery as a tool to help me. I'm tired of the merry-go-round. I need to get off for good.
2/6/03
Well, only three more days and a wake up! I wish it were today. I went to the support group last night and I said I was ready emotionally, physically and spiritually and I really mean it. I don't think I was there a couple of weeks ago. But it's time. I've just about wrapped up everything in work in preparation and everyone who needs to be told has been told so now it's just a waiting game. Please, clock, fly.
2/9/03 Only one more wake up. I'm a nervous wreck - afraid something will go wrong. Had a strange experience yesterday. Went grocery shopping with my brother. All of a sudden I was extremely sad - I realized all the foods I won't be able to eat for a while - if ever again. I guess I hadn't thought about it. I didn't have any of the 'eating of the last dinner' type of feelings, but I guess I know now what it feels like.
2/10/03 Well, the date is finally here. It's 5 AM. I've got to leave in about an hour. I've been up since about 3:30. Too nervous and excited to sleep. I'll be happy when today is over and I can start my journey to a new me - without the extra baggage.
2/17/03 Finally, home again. Surgery went great and I got out of the hospital on Friday. I went to my Dad's house for a couple of days and finally decided I could handle the stairs here today. Feels good. Not too much pain. I thought it would be worse. It just feels so good to be home again - even if it is in the middle of a snow storm. I can't believe I haven't been hungry once since the surgery. I eat because I'm supposed to, but that's the only reason why. New feeling for me - one I plan on enjoying while it lasts.
2/25/03 Two weeks post op and feeling good. Totally of 11 pounds lost. Considering I was losing 2 pounds a month before surgery, this is fantastic. I felt really down yesterday - not sure why. I think it's finally hitting me the big life changes I've committed myself to. And part of me is scared that it won't work for me after all of this - crazy as I know that is. I think I'm just adjusting.
Well, only one week left and I'm a nervous wreck. I can't wait to get it over with. I had my pre-admission interview and meeting with the anesthesiologist today. All that's left is blood work on Saturday then surgery on Monday. It seemed like it was so far away when I first heard the date and now it seems like it's so soon. I can't wait to get started on the next phase of my life. I'm just nervous about the surgery itself. It would be easier if I had more support. My family doesn't realize how important this is to me. They think I should just diet. I can't get them to realize that dieting doesn't work for me. I can lose the weight but eventually it all comes back - plus some. I've been dieting for 9 months and I've lost 23 pounds this time around. It's not working any more. I can't do it alone. I need the surgery as a tool to help me. I'm tired of the merry-go-round. I need to get off for good.
2/6/03
Well, only three more days and a wake up! I wish it were today. I went to the support group last night and I said I was ready emotionally, physically and spiritually and I really mean it. I don't think I was there a couple of weeks ago. But it's time. I've just about wrapped up everything in work in preparation and everyone who needs to be told has been told so now it's just a waiting game. Please, clock, fly.
2/9/03 Only one more wake up. I'm a nervous wreck - afraid something will go wrong. Had a strange experience yesterday. Went grocery shopping with my brother. All of a sudden I was extremely sad - I realized all the foods I won't be able to eat for a while - if ever again. I guess I hadn't thought about it. I didn't have any of the 'eating of the last dinner' type of feelings, but I guess I know now what it feels like.
2/10/03 Well, the date is finally here. It's 5 AM. I've got to leave in about an hour. I've been up since about 3:30. Too nervous and excited to sleep. I'll be happy when today is over and I can start my journey to a new me - without the extra baggage.
2/17/03 Finally, home again. Surgery went great and I got out of the hospital on Friday. I went to my Dad's house for a couple of days and finally decided I could handle the stairs here today. Feels good. Not too much pain. I thought it would be worse. It just feels so good to be home again - even if it is in the middle of a snow storm. I can't believe I haven't been hungry once since the surgery. I eat because I'm supposed to, but that's the only reason why. New feeling for me - one I plan on enjoying while it lasts.
2/25/03 Two weeks post op and feeling good. Totally of 11 pounds lost. Considering I was losing 2 pounds a month before surgery, this is fantastic. I felt really down yesterday - not sure why. I think it's finally hitting me the big life changes I've committed myself to. And part of me is scared that it won't work for me after all of this - crazy as I know that is. I think I'm just adjusting.
January 2003
Jan 31, 2003
1/31 I am a 44 year old single woman who has been overweight all her life. I asked my dad a while ago if I was ever a 'normal' weight and he said not that he could remember. I'm also in my last semester of graduate school so time is precious to me. This is not something I should be doing at this point in time. But, my insurance runs out in a couple of months and I know that once I start a new job after graduation I won't be able to take the time off for the surgery. So, I will make this work.
I am sooo nervous right about now. I am sure I am making the right decision, but the whole surgery thing scares me. I won't change my mind, though. I'm convinced this is the only way I can have a chance at a new life.
I am sooo nervous right about now. I am sure I am making the right decision, but the whole surgery thing scares me. I won't change my mind, though. I'm convinced this is the only way I can have a chance at a new life.
About Me
Nashua, NH
Location
23.0
BMI
Surgery
02/10/2003
Surgery Date
Jan 18, 2003
Member Since
