Kayla
Hmmmm...
Nov 15, 2007
It's kinda weird because I am losing weight again and I am not sure why? I lost that 5 pounds at the desert and I just got on the scale and I lost another 2 pounds. Oh well. This is something I will NOT complain about...LOL!!! I am sure I'll balance out again. I better just enjoy it while I can...lol.
Maintaining is a good thing!
Nov 13, 2007
We just got back from a long desert trip and usually I gain a bit on these trips because its like a having a huge party for four days. But this time I tried to not make it all about food. I actually lost five pounds...lol. That's cool. That means I am the same weight as last year at the desert. I am proud because I reached goal so fast...about 9 or 10 months out..and I am still there and it has been almost 2 years! Of course-give or take those normal fluctuations. The key word is "normal" because it is so easy to FREAK with ANY gain. I am lucky in that I don't have any sagging skin or serious need for plastics. I could use a tummy tuck from the kids an all the weight loss...but I won't go into any more surgery on a voluntary basis. I've been thru too much. I would like to start focusing on muscle tone. I can build it up fast...but I lose it fast if I don't keep up with it. It is amazing how on a smaller fram 5-10 pounds makes this HUGE difference in your body. Before I could lose 30-40 pounds and no one even made one comment. Now it's just crazy. I did have an incident with chicken at the desert. I must have ate it too fast or didn't chew well enough. But was very uncomfortable and I couldn't eat or drink anything for hours after....I knew that I had to throw up. You just know something is stuck when it's been 3 hours since you've eaten anything and you take a sip of water and it won't go anywhere.
I am Doing SO Good
Sep 20, 2007
I am very proud of myself. I've lost pretty much all my Summer weight. I am not having any alcohol after work and I am not going to Starbucks before work. I am walking the kids to school and eating low carb all week. I've been saving the weekends for my "bad habits"...lol. It's working wonders. It is still very hard. But I am very proud of myself for being able to break these bad habits all week long...
Wow!
Aug 27, 2007
Is that really me? Tonight my husband took a candid picture of me in the kitchen. Full body...turning to look at him...I can't believe how thin I am...I feel FAT..but I am NOT FAT! It's so weird.
Still NOT drinking with meals and waiting the right amount of time to drink STILL not drinking carbonated things STILL eating 3 to 4 MEALS a day and not grazing...STILL taking vitamins and calcium..STILL drinking my water...STILL eating my meals in 15 to 20 minutes...NEED to start working out AGAIN Summer's OVER BABY The vacation is OVER...lol. NEED to stop eating that last meal so late...it's really hard with my schedule though...NEED to lesson salt and CALORIES...I wanted to talk about the things I am doing right. It seems like I focus too much on what I am doing wrong.
Is Summer Over YET?
Aug 24, 2007
OK...I need my routine back so I can get rid of the weight I gained over the summer.
I just made something to eat and I weighed it. It was 8.5 ounces and I ate 6.9 ounces this is solid food not mushy stuff. I think that one cup of solid food is great. I can eat like a "normal" person and feel full. And since I eat about 3-4 times a day...that's great. I just need to chill out with the SALT...coffee...and alcohol. I make bad choices when I drink..even if I've been "good" all day. When I track calories..all my calories are coming from those things.
Last Night...
Aug 16, 2007
Last night at a meeting a principal made a comment that made me feel better. I haven't heard anything like this in a long time. I was reading the label on the veggie dip and he asked me why. I told him I was reading the calories. He said that I'm probably the only person in the room that didn't need to be doing that. There was over 100 people there. That felt nice.
A few weeks ago I went swimming with a friend. She hadn't seen me in a few months she said that she was getting worried about me for awhile there, that I was too thin, but now I looked good. Something like that. I know this can be looked at in two ways, but I see it as, yes...you've gained, and I can tell. I was a high weight this morning and I am very upset about this. I was just 130...what happened? I get lot's of comments about how thin I am when I am 130-133...I miss that. I feel SKINNY at that weight. I miss that. I feel panicked now, desperate... I scares me. Not just the numbers. I dreamed of being 155...even 165 for years...it's the GAIN that scares me. I'm not even two years out.
I know that in less than a week...I can feel better. Way better. I know that in just a couple of days I can lose a lot of weight. I can be 135 in just a week I am sure...even less. I know in my heart that when school starts again-and work-and vacation is OVER..I will get back to where I feel comfortable again. I just have no motivation. I know why I need to be motivated. I'm just not.
I get really depressed when I read posts on here about people gaining weight. It breaks my heart. I see all these replies about people going thru the same thing, or who never got to goal, or did, but can't stay there. What is it with the surgery that you can do the exact same thing that you did before, and gain? Thank GOD I was able to get this chance at living my life...but the change does have to come from within, and I just don't know if I'll ever get there.
I am 140 right now...for me...that's my high weight. I just don't want anyone to read this and think I gained 20 pounds or something. I bought this digital doctors scale in December and I was 137 on it when I bought it. So I have a low of 126 an high of 141 and an average of 133...maybe I shouldn't be so down?
A few weeks ago I went swimming with a friend. She hadn't seen me in a few months she said that she was getting worried about me for awhile there, that I was too thin, but now I looked good. Something like that. I know this can be looked at in two ways, but I see it as, yes...you've gained, and I can tell. I was a high weight this morning and I am very upset about this. I was just 130...what happened? I get lot's of comments about how thin I am when I am 130-133...I miss that. I feel SKINNY at that weight. I miss that. I feel panicked now, desperate... I scares me. Not just the numbers. I dreamed of being 155...even 165 for years...it's the GAIN that scares me. I'm not even two years out.
I know that in less than a week...I can feel better. Way better. I know that in just a couple of days I can lose a lot of weight. I can be 135 in just a week I am sure...even less. I know in my heart that when school starts again-and work-and vacation is OVER..I will get back to where I feel comfortable again. I just have no motivation. I know why I need to be motivated. I'm just not.
I get really depressed when I read posts on here about people gaining weight. It breaks my heart. I see all these replies about people going thru the same thing, or who never got to goal, or did, but can't stay there. What is it with the surgery that you can do the exact same thing that you did before, and gain? Thank GOD I was able to get this chance at living my life...but the change does have to come from within, and I just don't know if I'll ever get there.
I am 140 right now...for me...that's my high weight. I just don't want anyone to read this and think I gained 20 pounds or something. I bought this digital doctors scale in December and I was 137 on it when I bought it. So I have a low of 126 an high of 141 and an average of 133...maybe I shouldn't be so down?
It's CRAZY..
Jul 27, 2007
I should be use to it because I've always been this way...maybe I like salt too much!...but I literally can gain and lose 10 pounds in just a few days. If I eat right I can lose 5 pounds in a DAY. No wonder the scale numbers drive me crazy. At least I can lose just as fast as I can gain...LOL. I have always been blessed with a great metabolism.
Still wearing a size four jeans and staying between 130-140. I'm always higher in the Summer months for some reason. But I feel great. I am enjoying Summer with the kids. I am still five pounds under my goal weight. I'd LOVE to be in the 120's but I don't know if that will ever happen! I'd love to just be 130 AND STAY THERE...LOL!!!!
Still wearing a size four jeans and staying between 130-140. I'm always higher in the Summer months for some reason. But I feel great. I am enjoying Summer with the kids. I am still five pounds under my goal weight. I'd LOVE to be in the 120's but I don't know if that will ever happen! I'd love to just be 130 AND STAY THERE...LOL!!!!
A Two Piece!!!
Jun 22, 2007
I actually wore a two piece bathing suit to the beach yesterday! 134 and I feel wonderful. 16 months out. I'd never be here without this surgery. God knows I could never do it on my own before RNY.
BMI
Jun 08, 2007
Cool. I just checked my BMI and even at the "higher" end of what I feel comfortable at as far as weight is concernced..its still a "healthy weight" in the weight range. I knew that. But I didn't know that right in the middle of the healthy range for me is 21.7 Normal weight = 18.5-24.9....Ok...at 130...when I feel best my BMI is 21.6...RIGHT THERE in that middle range...cool..huh?
Hellooooo...................
Jun 05, 2007
Wow-I was back down to 130-133 for a while-now I am back up to 139-140 TODAY. I really HATE being above 135. BUT-I just looked back at my fit day journal and last June I was in the 160's!!! Sooooo....even when I am at my "high" I am still much thinner than last Summer! Plus this is a lot of water weight. I have been eating and drinking VERY VERY high salt foods. PLUS I am very DUE for my period. So I know I will be back down to my comfy spot really soon. I LOVE going to the gym. I need to go more. I'd like to start the classes again... because I get soooooo bored on those dang machines. Not the weights...but the cardio machines. I just want to pull my hair out. I can't stand them.
