kb2010
I have always been overweight and have spent the last 20 years obese. My weight issues started when puberty hit @ age 12 and I was overweight except for a brief year in 1991. I can't really say what it feels like to be "normal" but I can for sure tell you what it is to be fat. I think you start off with people staring and being rude and after a certain period of time..you just become invisible. I pretend I don't see people look at me with disgust and I pray that no one will insult me and penetrate the barrier I have created for my emotions. I have developed medical issues in the last years such as high blood pressure and sleep apnea and have one child and no more due to inability to conceive again. My deisre to be lose weight and enjoy the life I have ignored while sitting on the sidelines watching everyone else.