I'm not dead...

Jul 13, 2011

Hi y'all it's been a while since I've been on here.  Why? I don't know, I just haven't come here except to record weight loss on my tracker.  Everything has been fine.  Labs are good, still counting my protien, watching my carbs and fats, etc.  I hope all of my friends on here are doing well.  I am 203 now.  Four pounds away from onederland...which I never thought I'd get to and 6 pounds away from 200 lost.  I can't even fathom that I lost this much.  I'm a size 16 now, maybe a 14 for some manufacturers.  Can't believe that either.  I'm just in awe.  I want to get to goal but now I'm starting to become afraid I'll look funny at goal without plastics.  I mean, I already look funny naked in fact, that's really been messing with my mind lately.  You can see some wrinkles in my upper arms that hangs out of t-shirts which come to the elbow.  My bermuda shorts also tell small traces of my upper thigh wrinkles.  I love the weight loss.  I love how I look in clothes but summer makes you realize that you want to wear tanks and shorts and bathing suits....I feel totally uncomfortable in all of them.  I've been asked several times by children what was wrong with my arms (and believe me, I cover as best as possible).  The more time that passes the more I want plastics but I have no way to pay for them.  I am hopin my rash stories will be enough to cover what I need but at this point I need upper arms, upper thighs, boobs and my entire stomach/butt/back.  I need a full overhaul...I know I should be happy with how far I"ve come and I am but this excess skin gives me major confidence issues that I wouldn't have without it.  I'm also getting to a point where clothes that should fit me don't because of my excess skin...any thoughts you'd like to share, I'd love.
Thanks and love to you all!  I'd love to hear from all of you.

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