kcericson
This is the day that the Lord hath made...
Jul 29, 2010
we shall rejoice and be glad in it. I met a new friend today. Someone I came to know through OH, who happens to live not to far from me. We had a fantastic time...she is getting ready to have surgery, and since I am still a newbie, we had LOTS to talk about. I drove away after our outing smiling...I have someone who "gets" me. The real me...no holds barred, lay it out on the table, take it or leave it "gets me". That's a GREAT feeling...so, skay76...thank you! I had such a fantastic time today, and I know that it will only get better from here on out! As we were talking, she mentioned this morning the above song kept running through her head, and for some reason, it stuck there all day. I didn't think much about it at the time, but all evening, I kept singing this song over and over...
I am still having some issues getting liquid and protein in. However, thanks to another great friend I have talked on the phone with that I met through OH (here's to you, Brettsgirl!) I think I may have found a solution to some of my protein shake issues. Today, I went to GNC, and picked up some ready made protein drinks called Oh Yeah. It stayed down!! I'm not going to lie and say that I LOVE the taste, but I don't MIND them, which is a HUGE step forward, because up until this point, I have not found a protein shake that I could even tolerate. This friend also told me to try some Luna protein bars, and I LOVE them, and they seem to stay down, too...
I also bought a new water bottle tonight at GNC. It has a filter in it, so that it filters the water before you drink it. I think I have been having such a hard time with water because since surgery, I've come to the realization that I really don't like tap water. It's weird, because before surgery, I didn't even give it a second thought. So, I am going to give this a shot, but already, I've drank more water tonight than I have been able to in awhile! I have also been drinking at least one 32 ounce Gatorade G2 a day. I know it's not water, but it's fluid, and it's easy for me to get down...so I take what I can make work!
I still can't tell a big difference yet in how I look. I think that my face is starting to look thinner, but I don't really see much difference in my clothes or anything yet. My mom seems to think that when it happens, when my clothes finally start getting lose, it's going to be a huge change all at once. It's been six weeks, and it's discouraging to be wearing the same clothes I wore before surgery. I know the weight is coming off, although I haven't weighed myself since the 8th of July. We'll see what the scale says when I go back to the Doc on Tuesday.
So, while I am not completely over my battles with water and protein yet, I think I am on the right track...I am going to talk to my Dr. when I go back on Tuesday to find out why I still get so nauseous with food, and see if they are going to do a scope. I mean, I can't really live off protein drinks forever, or easy to chew protein bars, at some point I am going to have to get back in the food game. Right now, the thought of food still does make my stomach churn. Maybe this whole thing is in my head, but I feel like I am a pretty grounded person, and TRUST me, I do NOT want to throw up everyday!! So hopefully we can get this all worked out soon.
I have been trying to keep a positive approach to all of this, and I will continue to do so. Yes, I am frustrated, but I really don't believe that God will give me more than I can handle. I am a strong woman, and I need to rely on that strength and my faith to get me through this little mountain...I know he has good things in store for me! After all, he wants me to rejoice and be glad!
Loves!
Kylie
