kcericson
Good News! :) and some less good news...
Aug 05, 2010
Tuesday was my 6 week checkup (well, technically six and a half, but who's really that technical, right??), and I was nervous. I have not been having much luck keeping a lot of stuff down as of the last three weeks or so. Protein shakes seem to do OK once in awhile, and I've only been able to get in about half of my water. Anything solid I have tried seems to not agree with me too well...and that's meant lots of time in the bathroom bending over the toilet...which is NOT my favorite place to be. Anyway, I have to have a scope done next Thursday, on the 12th. Fun, Fun times!!!Also, I have suddenly developed this new fear of eating. Actually, it's more than just eating, I have developed a fear of food. I smell something, and think it smells wonderful, and then I think of taking a bite of it, and my stomach gets queasy. So, I avoid eating the food because I am AFRAID it's going to make me sick. ARRRRGGGHHH!! This is frustrating!
However, I stepped on the scale at the Dr. office, hoping for the big 5-0. Instead, I got the big 6-1. That's
right. Sixty-one pounds gone forever!! I have lost 61
freaking pounds in a little less than seven
weeks!
No wonder I am starting to feel more active, and less pain!! I am starting to notice a little more in my clothes, but not a whole lot yet. I am sure once I lose another 40 or so, and hit that wonderful century mark, I will start to be able to tell...
I know that the beginning of this blog sounds depressing. I'm struggling with some issues, that is for sure...but I know that it will work out. I really am going from a happy to a very happy place right now, but I think it's both important for others to know some issues that could arise, but also, it's therapeutic for me to get it in writing, and then let it go. I've journaled for a long time, and it always helps me release whatever emotion I have when I write it down. I want to remember it all...
So, that's the news for tonight. Not terribly witty or entertaining, but we are in a statue moment...hopefully soon, I'll be the pigeon again!!!
