Back at it again!!

Jul 22, 2012

 Well the last time I posted around these parts, I was in the process of a revision consult that was coming up. Well needless to say I went through with it and was in the talks to have a revision to a RNY from the Sleeve. But I'm a firm believer in things happening for a reason so in the midst of all that............I learned that I was PREGNANT!!!    Sp no revision for me!


Fast Forward to this year, I had a pretty rough pregnancy, before when I was much bigger I never had issue with Hypertension but I developed it during pregnancy and which turned into Preeclampsia resulting in my daughter arriving 11 weeks early by an emergency C-section on
Mother's Day She had to spend 9 weeks in the NICU, but to GOD be the Glory she is home and now my life is getting back in order!


I don't know what it is about all that I went through but we I look at her I think of all the issues that I had with my weight growing up and I dont want her to go through that or to even see me still struggle. I'm actually the same weight I was when I hit my original stall just some of the fat has shifted around since the pregnancy.

I've come back her to reconnect with my Journey and to recommit to continue with my orignal goal of reaching ONEderland, which with focus and determination I would like to get there by my BDAY which is in Jan. So that's 60 pounds with me getting back to the basics and working out.  My 2 children are my motivation and I'm realistic that I'm not perfect but I want to be better for them!!!


ME AND MY HONEY LOVE!!!!







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The Reality of it all.......Revision????

Oct 12, 2011

 Well Ive been gone for sometime but I lurk more than I comment now a days    I think for me 2011 has been kind of blah for me with my weight loss, well lack there of.  You see I had my Sleeve 3/09/2010, I loved it and still love my surgeon Dr. Carlin but 10/2010 is the last time I had any weight loss. So at first I thought oh im just in a hella long stall, I saw my surgeon at my 1 year appointment needless to say he wasnt happy about my progress and I wasnt honest with him I wasn't 100% all the time but I should have been further in my journey.

Ive done the boring and bland thing like he suggested, tried a protein train here and there, had some set backs but still no weight loss.  Theres no way Im eating as much as I was prior to surgery and I even still have the tendency to throwup.

I just feel like my body got to like 260-250 weight and decided to just kick it here and stay.  To top that all off Ive developed HBP when prior to I had no issues. At this point Im 19 months out and I stopped losing weight when I was 7 months out and dare I say I may have even gained 5 pounds.

So with research and the support of a few(I mean few) friends and my mom Ive decided to look into having a revision of the Sleeve to the RNY.  I can say this time around its totally different for me I feel like Ive failed my sleeve and embarrassed at the fact that I stopped losing weight. Im currently around 258 right now and I could stand to lose 80 or so more pounds. 

Before I was all open about my process but this time I can count on my hand how many people Ive told I just dont think many people would understand my struggle and to have went through the first surgery and STILL be Obese just tears me up. 


I contacted St. John Hospital where I hav e a consultation set up with Dr. Kole for a revision.

I just ask for your prayers in my continued JOURNEY and I ask the Lord to keep me!

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9 months ago today.........

Dec 11, 2010

I can't believe I've been gone so long. Apart of me stayed away because I am what most probably consider a slow loser. I didnt want to get caught up in comparing myself to others when I need to work my journey for me and only me.  

As of today I'm down 80 pounds  I can fit into some 16's, which is ok but I need to do better I would like to lose about 50 more pounds.


Not really much to say JUST I WISH EVERYONE WELL!!!!!!
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6 Months and it Flew by......

Sep 17, 2010

Well Happy 6 month surgiversary to me!!!  Can I just say GOD is good!! I just THANK Him for giving me this opportunity to just exist without as much fat.  I'm LOVING my SLEEVE still I've sorta hit another stall so Im about at 75 pounds down.

I'm doing a weight loss challenge at work which ends November 15 so I'm trying my best to hold out on weighing myself until then. Like I've read numerous times on here I do notice that I'm losing inches quicker than pound so ANY lose is good in my book.


NSV Im in a size 18!!!!!!! Down from a 28!!!!!! I couldn't be happier!!!!!!!!

Im also to the point where Im working out on a consistent basis 5 times week and I feel great, I've also noticed that it has help with my PMS  Well I tell yall it was bad I mean it was horrible, I looked up today and realized I hadn't had any big issues all week with it. So Im going to keep on keeping on!

COMING UP *Never thought I would participate, let alone be excited about them*
5K Run/Walk October 3

8K Walk Strides for a Cure October 16

I wish you all the best and YES I LOVE MY SLEEVE!!!!!



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5 months out and STILL Loving my Sleeve!

Aug 19, 2010

Well it's been about a month since I've slid through let me just say Thank you Lord for the opportunity to have this LIFE saving procedure!!!! Everytime I look at pics and see how far I've come I just get teary eyed, and I NOT even done yet.

Right now I've been at a stall staying around 70 pounds lost and Im cool with that but I still seem to be getting smaller so Ill take inches anytime. I did a few days of the Protein Train which seems to get me back on track, despite this surgery I still PMS and yes I need to have my fix

Let's see today I had a NON SCALE VICTORY, I tried on a pair of size 20 jeans at Old Navy and they were a lil big I should have went for the 18 but I was waaaaaay to hype off of that 20. 5 months out from a 28 to a 20/18 ill take it!!!!!!!


COMING DOWN THE PIPE

October 3  I will be running(more like walking and jogging) my First 5k!!!! Im excited and nervous all at the same time but it's always be a desire of mines to be a jogger, so this is helping me try to get on task wit my workouts.

October 10 I will be doing the Breast Cancer Walk which is a 8K!! I lost my aunt last year to this diesease and I'm supporting my sister who lost one of her best friends last month at the age of 33.

These are things I never saw myself doing in the past and now I want to take the opportunity to challenge myself and work this tool!


Still everyday is a struggle and a learning expierence, I find myself in the mirror now looking at the changes and Thanking GOD that it hasnt changed the person that I am. So I wish all you well in your journey because Im taking it one day at a time and loving it along the way

Kells


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4 months out...off track but getting back on!!

Jul 11, 2010

Well I can say that 4 MONTHS has just flown by but I have to be honest with my sefl. I have not been 100% like I should be Ive done some of the big NO NO's. I'm down about 51 pounds since surgery and I just cant help but think if  was doing everything I was suppose to do it would have been more. My dietician tells me Im doing fine but I know deep in side I can be doing ALOT better.


Going forward Im going to focus on making sure I exercise in some kind of way everyday.

Get my water in!

Get my vitamins in!

And don't take this tool that I have been blessed with for granted!


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First NSV!!!!

May 01, 2010

Hey all out there!!!! Still working this Sleeve aka Sassy but it's May and I need to step it up to get where I want to be!!

So tonight I had my first NSV (Non Scale Victory). I attend church regularly but for me I've alwayst thought that I dress to casual for church, my pastor has come as you are policy and I'm never tacky it's just being bigger I never wanted to wear dresses or felt comfortable wearing a suit but I had the desire It's a joke between my friends and I that eventually Im going to start dressing like Im someone's momma when I come to church.


Well last year 2009 on my bday my aunt my heart passed(I just tear up typing this) well she had all these clothes that I could wear to church and I was happy to take them not only that I could use them but because they were here's. She had two dress suit as well now I look at them thinking I can wear those. When I came back to Detroit I tried them on at my mom's I couldn't even pull the skirts up over my thighs and dare say I tried to button the tops of the two suits! Needles to say they went in my moms closets and have been hanging ever since.

Tonight I came down for the weekend I was in the basement I looked over and saw the suits hanging there.  I said what the hell Ill try one on..................................Yall it FIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I came upstairs to show my mom she said girl you can wear that to church tomorrow!! I said I would but my hair isn't done but believe me when I tell yall next week when I wear it I will be posting pics!!!!!

With Victories like that who needs scale numbers!!!!
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Surgery has come and gone.......

Apr 02, 2010

Well it's about 3 weeks since my surgery and I can honestly say I feel great!!!!

My Hospital Experience
I'm not going to lie I was nervous as hell when I saw that operating room I started crying because after a year or so of going through the process I couldn't believe that it was finally happening. The last thing I remember was asking God to keep me covered and holding the nurse's hand. The next thing I recall is Kelli we're done??!!?? I couldn't believe it I wasnt really in any pain that I was expecting to be in. I started walking that night and into the next morning. The highlight of my stay was getting that catherder out!!!  Because I was not holding down the liquids as well as I should have they decided to keep me a extra day, I think I was scared to eat in a sense.

Now
I think I'm down about 18 pounds or so since my surgery. I've decided that I'm not going to weigh myself again until my 10 week check up with my surgeon. The last week was crazy I was weighing myself everyday and it would piss me off when it wasn't moving. My biggest issue right now is getting the 700-900 calories Im suppose to be getting in and that is my main focus for April to get my calories up so that by May I can start my workout plan. I know Ill start working on my arms now but to work out the way I want and need to my calories need to be more than the 500 I'm getting in now. It's crazy that the desire to eat is gone right now and I truly forget to eat especially when Im at home. But popsicles have been my best friend though this process!!!


People are already seeing a change in the way my body looks, I see my boobs getting smaller already 

I'm excited for what's to come and I will work the hell out of this SLEEVE!!!!!!!! 
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WLS Nesting

Feb 19, 2010

Wow it's been a minute since I've blogged so there's no time like the present. My surgery is coming up a lil under 3 weeks now 2 time is the charm. I do admitt that I'm in a better place than I was in January and I'm kind of glad that my surgery was pushed back. Like I always say things happen for reason.

Well the last week or so I've found myself "nesting" with my apartment.(Cleaning, organizing, giving away clothes and even decorating some) I joked and told my sister I was WLS nesting. I guess I'm trying to get this together so that when I do come back home everything will be in its place or close to it.

I'm surprising calm this week. On March 3 I do my pre-op appt and I think at that point I may realize this is really happening. I'm sooooo in love right now with someone from my past thats happy with the fluffy me but he will have to get over it if he's going to ride this train.

Well it's been real until next time!!
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The Shame of it ALL........

Jan 06, 2010

So today was my pre-op surgery appt. for my big day(01/14).......  Or so I thought in the last four months Ive GAINED 15 pounds!!! Now I know I had gained but not that much well I was on pins and needles waiting for my surgeon to come in and tell me the words that I dreaded to hear!. Dr. Carlin came in and said "We will have to postpone your surgery" I immediately started balling for about about 15 minutes consoling me was not an option I just had to get it out. But I'd waited four months waiting and thought that the one week liquid diet would help get some of the weight off. I understood where he was coming from on a health stand point but I was so embarrassed that I allow myself to gain this weight in the past four months!

So Wanda(Scheduler) comes in the room(yes I'm still crying) she tells me that she's going to look at some things and told me I was looking at Feb or even March before I can get another surgery date. She had me wait there of course to get myself together but she also wanted me to talk to the dietitian to see where I went wrong. Of course I knew where I went wrong!

1. I stopped journalling what I put in my mouth
2. To many damn last meals(I mourned food so I ate in remembrance)
3.Holidays did me in and I did it up!

By this time I've had a chance to text my friends all the details while I'm waiting and  read a scripture or two(Love the Bible Ap on my Blackberry) and come to terms that I have to be  accountable for my own actions because that's the only way I will have progress.

Since it's so busy in the clinic I go home to wait on Wanda's call. As I'm leaving the hospital I'm at peace because I know His ways are Greater than my own and I needed this wake up call before I allow myself to get this tool!!!

Finally get the call my new date is March 11, 2010, but there's something different at the half way point February 10, 2010 he wants me to come weigh in to see where my progress is and if at that point I've shown improvement then they may move my date up!!!

As always I say things happen for a reason, but in this case things happened because I wasn't on my JOB I'm just thankful that I have a surgeon that sees my health as a concern before seeing a quota to meet. Starting tomorrow I'm focused more on my journey!

Am I embarrassed that I allowed myself to gain this weight? YES

But am I going to let it defeat me? HELL NO!!!

I'm grateful that I'm learning these lessons now and that I have family and friends that encourage me along this journey!!

Tomorrow Game ON!!!!!!

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