4 weeks out

Jun 23, 2011

 I am loving the energy I have now. I was out weeding for hours the other day and I felt wonderful afterwards. I even enjoyed the sore muscles the following days. 

I like that my clothes are fitting almost too loose. 
I like that I can see physical changes in my body.

But I am so disheartened that I haven't lost any weight! A week ago I lost 2lbs and I was so sure the stall was over. Since then... nothing. Whether it qualifies as a stall or not, to me it is. I am frustrated, sad, worried. My NUT said "Didn't I warn you about this?" Yes, she did, but she didn't tell me that it would last two full weeks (2lbs not withstanding) with no sign of an end in sight. Just hold on, she says. It'll pass. Yeah but meanwhile I get to feel the all-too-familiar feeling of diet failure that I've felt all my life. 

I'm just venting. I'm sure most who have experienced a stall of any sort have felt the frustration and wondered if they had blew their chances with this surgery. I've heard some say they've been stalled for 3, 4, 5 weeks. I don't know how they do it. How they keep their sanity.

Surgery pain wise, I am fine now. All healed up. I have the occasional twinge on my left side. Other then that, nothing. 

My back pain is back full force... or at least it has risen to the surface, no longer overtaken by the stomach pain. Doc is pushing for me to have back surgery soon. I asked her to give me six months. So, around November I guess. Maybe, just maybe. If I can deal with the pain well enough it can wait until after the holidays. I hope.

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