Kennerknecht

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My life has truly been an uphill battle since I had my lapband in 2009. I initially lost 80 pounds and then I couldn’t lose any more no matter how hard I tried. I began having a lot of marital problems, went out friends (drank way to much) and overall I ended up getting a divorce several years later. I am not in a much better spot in my life I have 2 beautiful girls who I would die for in a heartbeat.  I met a man that has his flaws as does everyone but I love him regardless and he loves me no matter what.

 

Initially when I got my lapband surgery I weighed in over 350 pounds, I lost about 80 pounds and that was the end of my journey. Fast forward a few years and I am up to 325 and disgusted and so sad about it. I finally got up the courage to ask for a revision, knowing I had failed my lap band made it so much harder for me. I am currently waiting on approval from my insurance company and praying that it comes through soon so I can get this all started and on a roll. I am revising to RNY and people ask me what my goal is? Do I want to be skinny and look great, yes that’s great, but honestly my goal is to be there for my kids. I want to take my children to Disney world and right now I can’t/wont because of my weight I want to be able to enjoy it with them not stand by and just watch my life pass me by. I want to be a fantastic mom for my children and to show them that I am all they want me to be. Right now I get winded trying to play with them so I don’t do all they want.  My oldest is a huge soccer lover and I cant even go play ball with her because I know ill be so tired that is ridiculous. I want to show my kids that hard work pays off. And I'm praying this will be the start to my new journey.

 

well monday the 19th was my surgery. im still in a lot of pain from time to time. but overall im not doing to bad!!!  i started at 350 and as of today im 326 its so crazy! im HOPING to get below 300 for the new year :) im hoping we shall see though! ill admit im not walking as much as ai should be sooo maybe ill get in a good walk tomorrow or something. my follow up is on the 5th and i hope to be down another 6 pounds by then! that would be 30 pounds since the start thats pretty amazing for me! if i get to 298 thats prepregnancy weight over 2 years ago!!! :) soo im hoping and prying :) but thought id update!!

So sometimes i feel like people are staring at me because of my weights. its most definatly not like i woke up one morning and was like hey id like to be fat lol. :) i dont think i percieve myself as large as i am until i see pictures of me with skinner friends. so my preop is on oct 8th and im curious to find out if they are going to make me do a preop diet or now. i have been dieing and yo yoing with the same 5-10 pounds since my first consult so we shall see

my friend kristina is coming out to help me on this journey atleast for a while. 6-28 of oct. my surgerys the 19ths the before days are just because i miss having friends from home. Movin to kansas and having surgery was defiantly not what i had in mind.

How do people cope with the holidays and eating? i go to my grandparents and i will this year as well. and my grandfather makes the BEST food haha. moderation i guess. small portions hopefully ill have a fill then otherwise it might disastorous!! haha

Well i got my appointment for my surgery its scheduled for October the 19th, 2009. im so excited i dont exactly have the support system here i would like. but atleast ive got one :) my husbands deployed in iraq until late next year so im going it alone. but im ok with that mostly. ive worked hard to get here and im going to work even harder to keep it. well my daughters getting into things... i will update again later.

Cristy