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Today was the day!  198!!!!!  Yesterday 200.8...today 198.0.  I honestly have no recollection in my life of being in the hundreds.  I lie....I remember weighing 100 lbs when I was around 10 and feeling so ashamed.  Today I feel so encouraged.  I recommitted to exercise and am doing a better job at measuring things.  Although my mind has made some changes...it's still has disease and I think I can eat more than I really can.  Taking control and making smart decisions.  

Here's proof! 

Today marks 1 year since getting gastric bypass.  It has been a roller coaster ride.  Completely life changing.  Totally worth it.  I have grown so much in this past year and have gained so much from the surgery. I am having a hard time slowing down my mind...but hope to write a full reflection here soon.  I just wanted to mark the day  :)

 

Feeling more and more normal everyday.  I have bumped my head a couple of times, and my tool is doing its job in teaching me what I can and cannot eat.  I am down 49 lbs since 12/31/11 (the day I started my 3 day preop diet).   I use this as my bench marker because it's the first day that I didn't eat like I normally would have.  Trying to get exercise in can be tough...but I am trying.  If I can't get to the gym...I will use Wii Fit or walk around my neighborhood.  I really need to start lifting weights.  I plan on making it to the gym on the weekends...and buying some weights to do during the week.  Working full time, taking 2 grad school classes, and working a 15 hour a week internship on top of it has really cut into my time.  8 weeks and then I will only have 1 grad school class and work...It will feel like a dream.  I can't wait for that. 

Today I am 5 weeks and 1 day post op.  The time has FLOWN by!  My Dr. approved me for normal food last Friday.  What's hilarious about being approved for "normal" food is that you still have to make smart decisions!  Not all food will agree with you right away!  Monday night I tried a tiny bit of whole wheat pasta with some turkey meatballs.  The meatballs wouldn't have been so bad...but the spaghetti...OH LORD....it hurt.  Not sure if I just wasn't able to chew it well enough or what...but it sure did hurt!  My tool has really been working for me.  It teaches me everyday...that I have to slow down, that I have to chew better, that I have to pre-measure my food!  I haven't lost weight in over 2 weeks...Doc said it's because my body is fighting desperately not to lose any weight.  So essentially my body is in starvation mode!  I weighed this morning and I am down 2 lbs!  YAY...praying that my body is going to finally release this weight!  :)  

12 days post op and feel really good!  Nothing to complain about, except that my belly itches!!  I guess that is a good thing considering that my wounds are healing.  I have been struggling with my emotions these last two weeks....crying a good bit.  But it feels good to get it out and deal with it!  If it was apparent before my surgery that I was a food addict, it sure is now.  The "break up" with food has been interesting and hard.  That being said, I am learning quite a bit and learning that food is fuel for my body!  My goal is to get to a stage where I feed my body and meet it's needs and am able to have "fun" all at the same time, while not going back to my old ways.  That maybe silly...but a girl can dream.  I am looking forward to cooking again.  I love cooking!  In fact I really love finding ways to cook light and make things healthy...My problem before was eating too much and also going out to eat too much!  

I am trying mashed up (to death) tuna with low fat mayo, extra minced onions, and Worcestershire sauce....and it's going down and I feel good!  I am testing the waters a little bit...I have to...this protein shake life is for the birds.  I will definitely become a protein bar gal as I progress in my journey!  :)

I am feeling kind of crappy.  I have a lot of gas and I have no desire to drink or eat.  blah!  I got close to 32 oz's down today and  3 little bites of sugar free pudding.  yuck.  I am waiting to take my pain meds and go to sleep.  I need a full nights sleep.  

Praying that I feel better by Monday morning (going back to work then).  :) 

 I am less than a month out from surgery.  I haven't had much time to think about surgery due to my crazy hours with grad school and my internship!  I am getting more and more excited. I have had a few times in the past month that I wish I had it already done. I know I am ready and that it's time to get this show on the road!