kerrigirrl
I've referred to myself as a "BFF" (big fat fatty) for as long as I can remember. In Jr High and High School, I was never the popular girl, but I had my ways of making friends and fitting in, despite my chubbiness. Luckily, I had some good friends who helped bring out the best in me, and were drawn to my "sparkling personality" and my "sweet spirit".
Since I wanted to have friends, I was the first to make a joke in reference to myself, so instead of being the "fat girl" I was the "funny fat girl". Keep 'em laughing, that's the key!
I am fortunate in the fact that I have terrific parents, a wonderful spouse and a few friends who are supportive of me. I have a hard time being in public simply because I hear what people are saying, I know what they are thinking and it hurts...plus it's embarassing!
I've done the diet thing since I was 10 years old and for lack of a better term, I'm just plain sick of it. I feel like a yo-yo with my weight going up and down, I'm constantly tired, constantly irritable, and for ONCE I'd like to feel GOOD and think, "Hey! Look at me! Woo hoo, I'm a hottie!"
Perhaps after surgery, I'll be one of those girls that make heads turn...of course the only head I REALLY wanna turn is my husband's. OOOOOO LA LA! Wait a sec....who am I kidding, I'd giggle with glee to make ANY guy's head turn. Hee hee hee!