Almost 5 Years Post-Op and I Need Help

Sep 17, 2012

I had my RNY in December 2007. My highest weight was 328, and on the day of surgery it was 319. I lost the weight fast and adjusted to the new diet and lifestyle easily (aside from the exercise, I didn't work out once). By January 2010 my weight reached its lowest at 162 --- a grand total loss of 166 pounds. But being a new mom, having my husband and I both out of work and living with my parents brought about a whole new world of stress and depression for me. I was able to maintain my weight for most of 2010 at around 180, but that didn't last the following year after my husband decided to join the Navy.

The experiences of his boot camp, A-School, and first deployment proved to be just too much for me emotionally. I found myself alone in a 1 bedroom apartment with no car, no TV, no friends, no family and nothing to do for months. The stress, anxiety, and depression proved to be more than I could handle and I ended up being hospitalized twice in less than a year's time at a psychiatric hospital. My only comfort was food - and I ate.

As of this past Sunday I weighed 259 -- up almost 100 pounds from my lowest -- and I am miserable. Things have settled down for me emotionally, but the scars have remained from the past 2 years. I have completely isolated myself... aside from the socialization I receive from my husband and my daughter, I don't get out of the house -- at all -- and I have no friends within 2000 miles. Physically, aside from housework, I do nothing. I sit on the couch all day watching TV, always too tired and exhausted to do anything... including playing with my daughter. I'm back to hurting, having aches and pains, should I do too much of anything, having difficulty breathing when climbing the steps to our apartment, my heart pounding by the time I walk out to the mailbox and back.

Diet wise, I can eat anything now that I did pre-surgery... except in smaller quantities. My biggest problem is that it feels like the food passes through my stomach quickly, and within 30 minutes after a meal I feel like I am starving again. I'm never full, never satisfied... so I am always grazing, looking to make that hunger go away.

I'm at a loss as what to do. What should I be eating? How often? And how much? When it comes to exercise what should I do? What should be my goals?.....and all in all... how can I be happy again?

I'm stuck --- and confused.

Someone please help.


Baby Love!

May 25, 2009

I haven't posted in such a long time, but I knew I had to get on and post this important and exciting information! Glenn and I are expecting our first baby! I am 10 weeks along and am due sometime around Christmas. 2 years ago I never would have thought this to be possible. But here I am, 154 pounds lighter, married, and pregnant.

Dreams do come true!

Catching up!

Mar 02, 2009

Wow,  it has been forever since I was last on here. My absence I think can be seen as both a good and a bad thing. Good in the fact that it is proof that I don't spend all my time online now, because I finally have a busy life! But bad in the sense that I don't stay in touch with my fan on how I'm doing :-p So, here is the latest...

I got married back in November ^^ Life has been absolutely wonderful. I am blessed to have Glenn in my life, I love him so much! I also, for the first time in over 2 years, am working again. I didn't work for so long for a number of reasons, among which my health and weight were an issue. But here I am, in much better shape and out bringing in the big bucks again. Okay, so I'm not really making that much money (I'm a janitor for a local college), but at least it does bring in a little somethin' somethin', and keeps me physically active. I lost 4 pounds last week because of the physical demands of my job!

I also have plans to go back to school. I'd like to get certified as a computer support specialist with A+ certification. I should be able to complete that program in about 8 months, and then be able to obtain a full time job that pays all right.

As for the weight loss...

I am now down to 182 pounds. I have lost a total of 146 pounds, and have 46 more pounds to go before I reach my goal. I have gone from a size 28/30 to a 12/14, and I look and just feel so much better. I am no longer anxious about being around people because I no longer feel like I stick out... and the smaller I get the better I feel about that. I can get through work without becoming winded or extremely tired, and that has NEVER happened.

Life is truely wonderful ^^

ONEder Land!

Oct 30, 2008

Yes, I have finally broke 200 and now weigh 198! I've lost 130, and have gone down 20 BMI points!

I am so excited and so happy to be out of the 200's!... I'll NEVER go back to that again. Never!!!

I'm only 62 pounds away from my goal.. and everyday it gets a little closer. YAY!

I'm Getting Married!

Oct 28, 2008

Glenn and I have set the date for our wedding: November 15th! Yes, that is only a couple of weeks away and I am going absolutely insane getting everything ready. Thankfully, we have been blessed with many wonderful people who are helping us bring together this wedding and reception.

For our honeymoon we will be taking a road trip from Utah up to Oregon and Washington state. I'm very excited to go (I'll be adding two more states to my list!) and can't wait to finally spend some quality alone time with my new husband ^^

The weight loss is also continuing, but at a much slower pace. I am now at 201, but have changed my diet back to something more conservative, and that should help the pounds to once again melt off. Still, overall, I can't complain about lose 127 pounds... that's nothing to sneeze at!

A year ago I never would have guessed that I'd be where I am today. I'm eternally grateful to God, my family, and friends for  their support through all that has taken place these past 10 months. I'm thankful for all the weight I've lost and especially thankful for the wonderful man who has completed my life.

There's a song that pretty much explains in simple terms how this past year has gone:

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
Fear is a friend who's misunderstood
But I know the heart of life is good
I know it's good
("The Heart of Life" by John Mayer)

And my friends life is good.... life is WONDERFUL!

Compare It!

Sep 10, 2008

9-10-08: On the left I'm pre-op, on the right is what happened to me in just over 8 months! I'm now 208 and have lost 120 pounds!

I feel wonderful and am doing great! I can't believe how far I've come or how much better I look and feel. What a difference 120 pounds can make, what a difference WLS can make! I am so very proud of myself, I must admit that. The journey will never be over, which is fine with me because I never want it to end.

I love life and WLS!!!!

Slow Down?

Jul 11, 2008

I have become somewhat discouraged this past month in terms of my weight loss. Within the last 30 days I've only lost 7 pounds, I now weigh 221. I know what has contributed to this slow down and what I need to do in order to fix it.

First off, because I'm now over 6 months post-op all types of food (except a lot of sugar) is considered "game." Even though I can have whatever I want in smaller portions, that doesn't make a hamburger any more healthier. I know I need to cut off the fast food once more, and cut down on my carb intake. Also, I haven't done any form of exercise since surgery. I really have been lazy in that regard and know that if I step it up then my weight will once again melt off of me.

So, I am rededicating myself to losing the next 85 pounds. By utilizing the tool I was given, and getting myself off the couch like I should, then I'll find myself heading down the scale faster.

I am still hoping that I'll reach my goal weight of 136 by Christmas. I know I can do it if I'll just do what I need to.

Keep me in your prayers!

100 Pounds Gone FOREVER!

Jun 11, 2008

Yes, as of today I'm 100 pounds lighter! I've gone from 328 pounds down to 228 (81 since surgery). I am so much happier, brighter, and lighter! I've gone from those 28/30 jeans and shirts down to 18/20s. My BMI has also dropped 16.1 points - that is A LOT of fat, and its all GONE!

What a difference WLS has made in my life. I consider myself very lucky and very blessed. 

Thank you God, THANK YOU!

Half Way There!

May 21, 2008

Well, my friends, I am happy to report that I am offically half way to my goal of 136. I've lost 96 pounds (77 since sugery) and have 96 more to go! I can't believe how fast all this weight has been coming off, and I hope that the next 96 come off just as easily and without complication.

Life has completely changed for the better since WLS, I have no regrets and would do it again in a heartbeat!

I'm Engaged!

Apr 28, 2008

Post Date: 4/28/08 9:28 am
Hey Everyone! I just wanted to let you guys know the good news! This past Saturday night Glenn popped the question and we're getting hitched! No date has been set yet for the wedding, but it will be this year. It is amazing how much life has changed since WLS! I couldn't be happier!

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Lemoore, CA
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