Skin Deep

Mar 15, 2011

It's daylight savings time and I'm excited about everything that comes with springtime: flowers, sunshine and rooftop bars.  Well almost everything cause that spring cleaning thing is the pits, but necessary.  I'm pulling my big brother into a few projects (and a couple he isn't aware of just yet!) cause I need the extra manpower, no pun intended.

As the seasons change from winter to spring, the warm weather does something to my estrogen, increasing it to uncomfortable levels.  I start doing weird things like changing my hairstyle, shaving my legs...and wearing dresses to boot!

While this may sound normal behavior for a woman, it's usually not my thing.  I like to wear my hair braided (as is evident in my profile pic).  I like my straight leg jeans and chuck taylors.  If I were completely unprofessional, I'd wear it work every. single. day.  I don't think anyone would notice.  It's something that makes me happy.  So when I find myself in the midst of one of these estrogen fits, I begin to feel like I'm not being true to myself, or maybe it's just another dimension manifesting itself and I should let it be.

With the nice weather comes excursions and I would like to have someone to share my excursions with.  This dating thing is so whack!  Where are the normal guys?  Where are the guys who are interested in true companionship?  Where are the guys who can actually communicate? I completely severed a relationship that I thought would have so much potential, but it turned out to be nothing.  I have certain standards and requirements that need to be met and they are non-negotiable.  I'm not expecting anything that I'm unwilling or unable (the two are NOT synonymous!) to offer and it mostly equates to common courtesy and respect.  Foreign concepts, huh?

I met another guy about a month or so ago and that went no where fast.  He made too many comments about my physical appearance and it made me uncomfortable.  Other than the fact that 1). I don't like to discuss my appearance and 2). His comments were inappropriate, I'm not valued as a human being with goals, thoughts, flaws and feelings.  As adults, we should be able to get past the superficial to enjoy and explore the qualities which make us truly unique.

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