Wow! I thought I had the game down pat!

Oct 07, 2011

I hate when old habits start creeping back into my life.  I am 4 lbs away from hitting my 100lbs mark and those old self sabotage ways hit me up hard today.  I was sick and feeling really icky, and upset over yet another plateau I was dealing with, but I have never been as scared as I am right now.  These feelings are strong and since I can hold more food now, I feel like I am a tragedy waiting to happen.  I am really going deep into my head and having some serious conversations with myself because I know that I am the only person that can do this.  I can't wait to hit the gym tomorrow, and I know I need to implement some better strategies in my life and get up out of this funk I'm in.  Lord, please don't let me fail at this thing, become another statistic, being one that throws this gift away and end up back where I started, because I honestly would not be able to handle that.  My life is so much better so why in the hell am I screwing with it?  This phase is over NOW!! Four more pounds to a major milestone, and I gotta do it.  Time out for these excuses!  Ok, I had to get that out of my system, needed to rant, and I'm done. Night night OH fam!

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