January, 2009

Jan 08, 2009

Hi Everyone-
Its been a while since I have posted anything on here (other than some updated pictures) so I thought I would say hello. The Holidays this year were AWESOME.  Went to Pittsburgh with my son to visit all of our family.  Had such a good time.  I know my family has always loved me unconditionally, but i just feel so much different around them all now.  One, I know they are sooooo proud of both of our WL accomplishments (my son is still maintaining his 80+ lb weight loss) and I am maintaining (and still loosing a little - although I want to stop loosing at this point).  Its just so nice that now when everyone looks at me i dont feel like i am getting that "pathetic" look anymore.  I also got to spend some time with some very good friends of mine that I have had since high school.  We have remained very close for all of these years, but I have to say, until I started this WL journey, i kept in touch with them via, phone, email, etc., did not see them a lot when I went to PA (was just embarrassed at my weight I guess) although I know it never bothered them at all (aside from their concern for me) but anyway, its just amazing how I feel so different now - I am wearing the same size as some of them are (who would have ever thunk it)  haha  and in pictures, etc., I just look like "one of them" am no longer the "fat" one of the group. 

I went to my first support group meeting this week since I have had the surgery.  It was in Crofton Maryland and it was great.  It was awesome to meet other people that have either had the surgery or are gearing up to have it.  Even though I have been very successful with mine - it is GREAT to hear and see other success stories.  It is also great to be there to help the new ones just starting out. 

I have become very good friends (although we have not yet met) with a woman from Illinois that I met on here.  Her surgery was a year after mine and it is great to be a support to her.  She tells me all the time how much I help her, etc., It really really makes me feel good to know that I can help someone thru this.  I also am in more constant contact with Dawn (mommymonfort)  (Check out her profile she looks awesome) who is an ex boyfriends daughter that I have remained very close with.  She had her surgery in August of 08 and has lost 80+ lbs to date AND I COULD NOT BE MORE PROUD OF HER.  She lives in Arizona but Dawn, I know one of these days we will go SKINNY CLOTHES SHOPPING together. 

Am for the most part wearing smalls and mediums in shirts and 8's and 10's in skirts and pants.  I never in a million years would have ever thought I would get to that point.  Even actually went from a size 12 to a 10 in shoes.  In fact, had a pair of 12 pants on today that I bought about a month ago and I love........the girls at work told me today to get rid of them they were too baggy...........what an amazing thing to hear.

I have said this in all of my posts and will continue to say that THIS WAS THE ABSOLUTE BEST DECISION I COULD HAVE EVER MADE.  I have a wonderful boss/friend that I have worked with for 25 years who made this all possible for me and I will never forget her for this.  I also have a wonderful support group with family and friends. 

Like I said in a prior post, my husband of only 2.5 years is out of the picture now, but I am dating again and it is sooooooo different in every way imaginable (I will just leave it at that)  haha  but for the first time in my life I feel like the ball is in my court and I dont have to "settle".  Have met some wonderful people thru this site and cannot thank them enough.  I know they will be a part of my life (in one way or another) forever.

I am still having a little bit of an issue though actually realizing that I am thin now.  I know it to look at me and I know it in clothes, but actually said to someone the other day, I was going out and I wanted to wear something that looked really good on me.  I asked him, what do I wear that makes me look the thinnist and his reply was, Kim, EVERYTHING you wear makes you look thin - YOU ARE THIN.  And i guess I am just still having a hard time comprehending that.  Am also having somewhat of an issue in the dating category as far as I am used to always being with big guys.  Since I am 5'11 I have always dated tall/big guys and now I am finding that the big guys, god forbid they give me a hug, i feel like they are crushing me.  Mentioned this to my mom and she said that maybe I need to stop looking for big guys now and just date regular built men, but for some reason I am having a bit of a problem with that as I still feel like I am bigger than them, even though I AM NOT.  So if anyone out there has any words of wisdom on that issue - please send them to me.  This is a whole new life and I need to get used to doing lots of things differently. 

Well, enough for now - thank you all for your love and support/kind words, etc.  I have read on here and I thoroughly believe  we are all family as no one knows how we feel except each other................

Love and Happy New Year to All...................

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