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wichita_loser 15 years, 3 months ago

Post Date: 1/14/09 1:55 pm I'm the biggest hypocrite on this board. I went off on everyone who cheated and on day 9 ....I CHEATED!!!!!!!!!! I had called the nutritionist and asked if i could have some and she said to bump my protein shakes up from 1 a day to 4-6 a day. She asked how much weight i have lost and i told her 30 since i saw the surgeon in Sept. She said it was OK to eat something and not feel guilty about it and then get back on track. So i did. It was not even good. I was not even Hungary. I just wanted it. It was not a treat or a "i deserve this" it was just i knew it was in the kitchen and i wanted it. Then, today, i gave the dogs some left over corn bread...( how ironic that i jumped all over kimber for her corn bread and her i am doing the same thing) and i had a few crumbs...then a bite and then i felt so out of control and felt like i was losing it that i took the whole pan and dumped it into the dogs bowls. WTF???? Day 9 and 10 and NOW i am going to screw it up?? I'm not even Hungary anymore. I'm past that. I was doing so good. I am sooooooooooooooo sorry for the things i said to everyone about cheating. I thought i was above it and i guess I'm not. Does this mean i am going to screw up my WLS? Oh..AND i have stop losing weight. I have only had like 1 protein shake a day and sometimes i skip that. WTF?? I cant eat any less. I am totally obsessed with losing weight. I weigh like 4 times a day. I really want to lose another 6 pounds by my surgery on Monday. I am so over this...if i could go in tonight i would just to get it over with. I'm not even Hungary. I don't WANT anything. I guess it is just being board or head hunger or maybe i need to face that fact that i DO have an addiction. I CANT stop. This is why i am having the surgery. I don't want any sympathy i just wanted to confess to you all. I felt you all deserved to know. ~AMANDA~

Ashley Nicole 15 years, 3 months ago

Your surgery was yesterday and i thought about you...hope all went well and cant wait to hear from ya soon!!

sophlady1 15 years, 3 months ago

You'll be fine, like a butterfly, spead your wings and soar. This a new beginning. Thank God 4 this opportunity. God bless always Kim