Emotions Are Running Rampant...

Jan 17, 2010

So my date is set... plane tickets are bought... starting pre-op diet on Monday... but now emotions are starting to run rampant through my mind. 

No, I'm not doubting what I'm doing or why I'm doing it.  Nor am I doubting who will be doing the surgery.  This is a humongous change with so many open ended questions that won't have answers until after everything is done.  It just makes my mind think too much and when it things way too much, it tends to cause more problems than answers.

For example, people say that their taste buds change after the surgery.  What does this mean?  Could it mean that I'll actually like the taste of veggies now?  Will I no longer enjoy the taste of beef or chicken?  

Or how bout this...  everywhere I read, folks say no more sodas... yet when mom had her surgery, she drank sodas all the time.  Will no sodas be a rule to follow or simply something my body won't be able to handle?

And of course there's the whole morbidness of possible death from the surgery.  As I said earlier, I trust that I've chose a good doctor in a great facility, and I'm confident that everything will be just fine.  But, this is a major surgery and shit happens.  Am I prepared for this kind of situation?  Have I done the things I've wanted with my life?  Morbid and silly I know, but it's something one has to think about

Oh well... I need to find some kind of distraction.  Maybe I'll go run through the streets naked so that my fat jigglin' will end up on you tube... 

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