kit_n_fish
Hi there! My name is Teresa, and after becoming clean and sober in 2001, i gained 60 lbs. Then i quit smoking in 2004 - 50 more lbs packed on. Talk about cross addiction! Then, i replaced all of it with food! Food and being full is such a comfort to me. It's like it was with alcohol and drugs-they became my GOTO, my best friends, my warm blanky. Food, like alchohol, and drugs, is only a temporary fix, instant gratification, which is usually followed by remorse, no matter what my drug of choice, booze, drugs, food, etc. Which, of course only keeps the vicious circle turning, getting me to where i am today. Cooking is my passion! And, this is where i have always gained 100% acceptance, admiration and respect for "who i am" and 'what i can do". Making people a meal that makes them happy, smile, laugh, and enjoy the meal with family and friends is a gift worth giving! Seeing them happy and enjoying themselves was my biggest payoff, and made me so happy! My health has deteriorated so bad the past 2 years, everything from diabetes to COPD. I take 12 pills every morning before i even leave for work. I am dying, and i want to live. Same when i decided to sober up, for me to drink is to die, and now to eat is to die. I am having RNY on February 5, 2008. I am going to get my life back! I am SO excited and thrilled, but SO scared.