WOW another month has gone by...

May 11, 2009

Can if really be....its been over a month since I last posted.  Guess I've been out of it for awhile...to much upkeep. 
Okay soooo lets see where I've been for the past month.....I was down to 189...but gained 2 lbs ...so Im back to 191. Its killing me!!! Since I don't dump...I've gotten my hands on my #2 weakness...GUMMY BEARS.....my thinking goes likes this "well since I work out at the gym so much, I could afford this WHOLE bag of Gummybears".   I wish I had surgery on my brain as well...ARGGGG.   But you know, knowing that I lost over 100lbs....Im still SOOOO proud of myself. I still wake up at 4am and hit the gym for 2 hours 4 to 5 times a week. I don't go for the treadmill in the back....Im using the ones up front with everyone else. (you know what Im talking about).  My friends and family...see the difference in me all the time. Even with 2lbs gain..I still look damn good.  My 14s are fitting, instead of tight on me.  Im just another 40lbs still I hit my goal weight. I know Im gonna reach it. I just want to reach it NOW!!! 

My marriage is back to the normal again. I had to let go of some ugly excess baggage..and once I did that, my DH seemed to be a whole new man to me.  What a wonderful present I gave myself, a saved marriage.

You know, even if I don't lose one more pound....Im just sooo happy of who I am right now. Im not that 300lb Karen who didn't want to do anything. Now Im playing with the neightbor kids....acting like a kid again. And its great. Its great to see the look on my kids face when they watch me play.  I finally feel like a good parent. 

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