One month and 3 days post-op

Jun 09, 2016

What you hear is so true when you read these blogs, vlogs and newsletter and yet it is such a personal journey.

I have had no complications.  Food has gone down so well with no gas pains.  Sugar doesn't bother me in the least...uggghhhh, was hoping it would.  Exercising more than I have in two years which is great.  Lost 16 pound in the first 3 weeks and then stalled the entire 4th week.  Now in the fifth week have dropped 2 lbs in 2 days.  I also had my first stomach ache yesterday.  It scared me a little bit because I had no doctor to go to to see if there was a leak.  Luckily I took one of the pain/nausea pills I got in Mexico and after a nap felt better.  However will be on shakes and Vasso yogurt pops for the next few days to make sure all is well.

So really, I have adapted so well to the physical change.  However I do get frustrated and resentful at times.  I am mad sometimes that I can't eat in quantity and never really feel satisfied.  The addiction I have to food is so real right now and the sleeve has made it that much more obvious.  I have stuffed my feelings, boredom, and fear with food forever and nowit is impossible.  I am substituting walking a lot which is great but still if I am perfectly honest, I wish I could have one day off a week...or even one meal off.  Just not gonna happen and I have to keep reminding m yself that it is the addiction talking.  I also know that I get to go to Overeaters Anonymous to handle these issues before I am too far out.

The saddest thing I can imagine is going through all this only to gain the weight back.  I must find some resolve in letting go of food, my best friend and worst enemy.  Food is solely fuel so I can live the life I always imagined.

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