Kathi C.
My Doctor Didn't Recognize Me!
Mar 17, 2009
Today, I went to see my PCP and she walked right by me in the hallway. She said she didn't recognize me. I LOVE IT!! I have lost 16# since I saw her January 16. That was the day I joined Curves and according to them, I have lost 18 pounds and 21 inches. That is more encouraging than the stupid tenths of a pound I lose every few days on my scale. ALTHOUGH, today I lost .6 of a pound; making my total loss just over 80#. It seems like all of these little mini goals, just take forever to reach. I just want this done and over with and I keep forgetting; this isn't like other times I have lost weight. Those were "DIETS" that I tortured myself with for awhile then went back to "normal" eating. This IS the rest of my life. This is what I am going to be doing for the rest of my life (except the fruit and grains which I get to add back into my diet after I lose 3.9#).
I am looking forward to adding fruit, not so much the grains since those are my trigger foods. But like that girl at my support group said I don't have to add grains now. I can do it when I am ready, not just because the scale has a certain number on it.
I feel really good today, except for my shoulder pain. It is getting so that it is affecting the quality of my life. They took X-Rays today. Tomorrow, I see the Orthopedic Doctor. I REALLY hope he can help me. NSAIDS aren't going to be the answer. I hope a cortisone shot or something will help. If I tore my rotator cuff, it may mean surgery. Although I don't look forward to surgery, it would be nice to have my arm working properly without constant pain. I am not a baby and not accustomed to hurting like this. I can generally just ignore it, but it hasn't been working with my shoulder. The only time I don't feel pain is when I am sleeping, but I am not sleeping well because of the pain. Getting up is very painful.
On a brighter note, my Liver enzymes (which were elevated on my last blood work) are perfect. My triglycerides, without meds, are 100. That is perfect and the best they have ever been without meds. My good cholesterol went up 1 point (needs to be much higher); my bad cholesterol went up from 98 to 126 which needs to be below 100. My total cholesterol went from 145 to 173 (but this is so much better BECAUSE I am not taking meds now and I was then). I probably just need to cut back on the cheese. My thyroid is normal. I thought that might be why I am so tired and worn out, but that could be because of my shoulder and not sleeping as well as I could be sleeping.
After all of the morning doctor stuff, Mom and I went to The Bagel Snack for salads (I brought 2/3 of mine home, as well as a Bialy for Jay’s lunch). Then we went to the Podiatrist for our toe nails to be cut. We had a nice visit. I am so blessed to have my mom and have her healthy and mentally alert and “with it.” I am so thankful that I am here close where we can (we don’t much, but we can) run back and forth to one another’s home.
Denise (my daughter) has lost 15# and my mom has lost 6#. I am so proud of both of them. They are using protein shakes as meal replacements for some of their meals and Mom is going to Curves 3 x weeks and walking over there. Denise is swimming, but I don’t know how often. They are both doing this because of seeing me losing weight. I am so happy for them and grateful that I could be a good example, even if I had to do it the “easy way.”
I still need learn to rid my mind of the issues that caused me to want to stuff with food. I still need to learn how much is enough. Although I feel hungry (no honeymoon for me), I have not learned satiety. I still think I can eat more than I can hold. I need to learn how much is enough for me and when to stop (NOT ONE MORE BITE!). However, since this is the rest of my life, I have that long to get it down pat.
