Weeklyish Weigh In

Oct 01, 2008

186

Getting a trainer - I'm wanting to firm up my bod a bit.  All part of my new tactical plan for my financial future.  Marry a rich, work-a-holic husband.  Must have better abs and arms for that kind of challenge.

Weekly Wednesday Weigh In

Sep 19, 2008

Yup - back to 185 this week.  LOL!

This may be my body telling me it likes this weight - I know I do, so I'm not working as hard as I should be.

But I'm surviving, I'm having fun, I'm loving my life, and I'm staying active.  This, to me, is heaven - and if I don't hit my goal weight, who the hell cares?  It was a random number we set based on the BMI chart.  I think I'd like to go down one more size, and I can if I work at it - but for now, I'm surviving when life is chaos and gloom - and I'm damn proud of that.


Weekly Wednesday Weigh-in

Sep 09, 2008

What the hell is happening to my body?

I'm at 183 today - a new low.   Been working on my protein, keeping away from sugar - NOT drinking alcohol for the most part.

Guess it's working - I'm back on my way down, but will save the celebration until we see a few weeks of progress in a row.

Still......183.   Not complaining!

Welcome Back to the Real World, Neo

Sep 03, 2008

Yesterday I was complaining to my shrink that I've been very lazy with my eating and exercising habits, though I've been maintaining steadily for two months without any problems.  I haven't been going to the gym since my gym buddy moved, I've been slacking on my protein and eating more sugar, and I even started drinking in moderation again.  Having expressed these confessions, I prepared for the flame backlash but was surprised to be met with this:

"Nikki, you're going through a divorce.  You just lost your baby.  Your four core circle of friends moved this year.  Your house is in foreclosure.  You're a step away from bankruptcy.  You're struggling with hormones as the result of your weight loss and unexpected pregnancy.  Your family lives on the other coast.   Don't you think you could cut yourself a little slack and let your body rest?  Let's put things back in priority, after all!"

And today - I did.

I stepped on the scale this morning and found I finally broke out of the 180's - only not in the way you're thinking.  I hit 190 again!   After 8 weeks of 185, I've actually gone UP five pounds.  That was pretty much all the priority I needed.

This isn't a "Flame Me" request - just an observation.  Sure, I could sit back and say LIFE IS KINDA SHITTY right now and use that as an excuse to slack.  But the truth is, life is ALWAYS going to throw a monkey wrench in your plans.  There will ALWAYS be something. 

So yeah, I'm back on track.  I've got caffeine withdrawals from hell, and I'm craving carbs like they were life saving mana from heaven.  But I'm not worried - I have my attitude back in the right place.  There are few things in this chaotic world that I can control - my weight and my health are two of them - and I will find the comfort and the freedom I need in taking control of what I can.

For those of you NOT experiencing the "I lost 100 pounds in my first six months" syndrome - hang in there.  It doesn't mean you're broken, and it doesn't mean you're lazy - it just means, like most of us, you're human.

Nikki the Pirate Queen

Wednesday Weigh-in

Sep 03, 2008

Welcome to your reality check wake-up call!

190

Get your ass back on track!

Sometimes people suck!

Aug 19, 2008

There are so few opportunities that we have to truly repay kindness in this world to those that dish it out.  The concept of "pay it forward" is wonderful - but it certainly doesn't eclipse the fact that there are so many to whom we owe THANKS.

Last night we had a party in Charlotte for Terri R - who has been a HUGE source of support, advice, and friendship to so many people on this board.  So when exactly TWO people showed up to meet her - I admit to being beyond disappointed.  I'm actually a little pissed.

It was WONDERFUL to get to meet Deb and Lexi - I feel so grateful to have been able to get to know them in person - and it was truly a blessing to have Terri down for a visit (even if I did INADVERTANTLY poison her).

But seriously - it's such a small thing, I guess it just brought back some painful memories of the people that were "too busy" to come to my wedding reception.  It's such a small thing - maybe people don't realize what a big difference a small gesture can make.  I don't know - maybe people just suck.

Wednesday Weigh In

Aug 19, 2008

185 - steady and holding.  BLAH!

Wednesday Weigh-in

Aug 06, 2008

185 - major PMS, but the end of major stress this week.

Finals are over for all classes as of yesterday and my interview at Microsoft is tomorrow.  Then it'll be a weekend of pampering (but not sugar).

Hoping to see the scale moving downward again next week.  More adventures to tell - but not today.  Must study for interview!  :)

Bi-weekly Wednesday Weigh-in

Jul 23, 2008

184
 
Holding steady - but then, I've been out of town and partying quite a bit.

Still loving my RNY - still loving my new found health and energy - still determined to get to my goal!

Wednesday Weigh-in

Jul 09, 2008

Okay - it's Thursday - but what can you do?

I didn't weigh in last week because I was on vacation with my family eating iike a freaking glutton on stuff I really shouldn't have.  I hate to admit it - it was fun - and I felt like absolute garbage afterwards.  I'm easily back on the bandwagon but still recovering - some tummy issues, which I suppose should be expected.  We won't even go into the UTI, yeast infection and problematic eustatian tubes...

184 today - far less damage than I expected, which is a little disappointing.   I wanted to be punished for my bad behavior -  it doesn't change the fact that I'm back on plan and back on track.   Maybe they'll show up next week and I'll be bemoaning what the heck is going on.....

Onward!

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