Normal

Sep 15, 2009

This is weird and emotionally complex to talk about but, here I go.

So, officially I started my period.  It's felt like my body has been working so hard the last four days to make this happen and there were little signs and indications but I was afraid to trust it and today.....it happened.

At 38, for the first time in my entire life, my body is working normally in a reproductive manner.  My body, un-aided by medication, is functioning like everyone else's.  And this makes me really, really emotional. It also means I'm ovulating normally.  So not just one process, but MANY are functioning normally.

17 years of being on the pill to have a period and regulate PCOS.  Then 5 years of taking progesterone every two-three months to have a period. 

I had the DS because I desperately wanted to eat like a normal person and function like a normal person and while the weight has been coming off....somehow THIS feels bigger.  This feels more important.  This feels like I'm a real woman....not a medically aided woman who.

This feels like my body isn't betraying me. 

That's a statement, huh?

So yeah - that's where I am right now.  Emotional and happy and sad and so overwhelmed that the reason I had this surgery is actually, really, truly, working. 

So, I got my period, y'all. 

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