krissywats
I've been putting this off
Nov 03, 2009
Original Post Date: 10/26/09 11:40 amI'm not sure where to start.
My days are unpredictable. Some days I'm great and other days I feel like I'm encased in concrete. some days it's all I can do to just stay in bed. Some days I feel depressed but know I have absolutely no reason to feel this way but still can't shake it off. Just over three months out - still normal? I think I just need some assurances that this will go away.
My water intake is good. My labs were good (a few tweaks needed). I'm getting in all my vitamins. I am getting in all my protein. My weight loss has stopped but no gain. I figure it's about time it stopped for a week or so anyway.
Then there's pooping. It's DS-normal but it's unpredictable. Morning: twice at least. Then last night I had to go twice in the middle of the night. Yesterday I had to go mid-afternoon. There's no pattern any more like I hear other DSers talk about. And this might be a little nuts but I don't like to poop outside of my house - it makes me anxious and insecure about smells - the smell isn't worse than pre-op poop it just permeates more and lasts longer.
Ok...and then there's insecurity. I have NEVER been insecure and suddenly I'm constantly anxious and insecure. I hate that.
I have a lot of great things - and I'm well aware of that intellectually and I'm aware of the gift I have and on my good days (the days when I feel like skipping and humming through the grocery store) I can feel all that and take it in. But on the down days......I feel so heavy and slow and lethargic and insecure and sad and like I can barely function. And there seems to be no rhyme or reason to it all.
Someone please tell me this is normal and that it'll go away.
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07/16/2009
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