I've been putting this off

Nov 03, 2009


I'm not sure where to start.

My days are unpredictable.  Some days I'm great and other days I feel like I'm encased in concrete.  some days it's all I can do to just stay in bed.  Some days I feel depressed but know I have absolutely no reason to feel this way but still can't shake it off.  Just over three months out - still normal?  I think I just need some assurances that this will go away.

My water intake is good.  My labs were good (a few tweaks needed).  I'm getting in all my vitamins.  I am getting in all my protein.  My weight loss has stopped but no gain.  I figure it's about time it stopped for a week or so anyway. 

Then there's pooping.  It's DS-normal but it's unpredictable.  Morning:  twice at least.  Then last night I had to go twice in the middle of the night.  Yesterday I had to go mid-afternoon.  There's no pattern any more like I hear other DSers talk about.  And this might be a little nuts but I don't like to poop outside of my house - it makes me anxious and insecure about smells - the smell isn't worse than pre-op poop it just permeates more and lasts longer.

Ok...and then there's insecurity.  I have NEVER been insecure and suddenly I'm constantly anxious and insecure.  I hate that.

I have a lot of great things - and I'm well aware of that intellectually and I'm aware of the gift I have and on my good days (the days when I feel like skipping and humming through the grocery store)  I can feel all that and take it in.  But on the down days......I feel so heavy and slow and lethargic and insecure and sad and like I can barely function.  And there seems to be no rhyme or reason to it all.

Someone please tell me this is normal and that it'll go away. 

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