Busy and stressed
Jan 22, 2009
Hi! Since my last post I have been extremely busy, mostly due to work. I've also seen a significant increase in stress. As for the plateau. I've gotten off it. I say Dr. M in Dec 08 and lost 5# in two months. I had a 2nd fill at that time. Dr. M has said he is pleased and satisfied with my performance. He did not recommend a fill but complied with my wishes. The new fill has helped.
Truthfully, I'm struggling with the emotional aspects which hold me captive at times primarily in the form of less exercise, with an occasional poor food choice. The band has made the "eating" part far easier to be aware and in control of amount regardless of the food choice. This awareness was a huge missing piece pre-surgery in my ability to arrest food issues and succeed in losing the pounds. Despite the stumbling block of less exercise for the moment, it is a far easier "block" to overcome than the food consumption.
For anyone considering this option, the MOST important pieces to continue following surgery besides diet/exercise is SUPPORT GROUP and COUNSELING (if needed). These two components are KEY to me not failing.
Oct 11, 2008
I see the Dr. on 10/17. I know what I need to do is record my foods more frequently though, other than carbs, I don't feel I've been off track with the food. I KNOW I've been OFF with the EXERCISING. So, I need to get back to that.
I may need a fill so we will see what the Dr. has to say. I'm not done yet and I'm still working on changing behaviors. I know I can do this and WILL SUCCEED at this.
Visit with Dr. M on 8/8/08
Aug 10, 2008
Whoo, I'm quite pleased. Dr. M is pleased as well as he has been with each visit. He didn't do a fill and did not see a reason for one nor did I. I've been doing well, there is little to no hunger. In light of the positives, Dr. M stated we could go 2 months before my next visit (barring any problems). His specific words were "keep doing exactly what your doing, it going well".
I'm thrilled with my success and I keep reminding myself that this is going well. I still have times when I want this to be instanteous but slow and steady does the trick. Now that things have quieted down some I can get back on track with my exercise program. I've even looking forward to trying some yoga soon.
A busy July
Aug 07, 2008
Ok, it's not an easy, straight shooting path. Yes, I've struggled but the consistent success and visable success helps a great deal in providing the mental willpower to keep at it. It helps that counseling, exercise and nutritional counseling continue to be used daily/weekly. The biggest support is the support group. Without them I'm sure I'd feel "lost, misunderstood and lonely". I'd be hard pressed to fight off those people in my life who say "oh, just one more cookie" or "hey, you were more fun when you were bigger" or "whats up with you, you're downsizing".
Steady and slow and consistent is the sound of success.
Back on track
Jul 10, 2008
Boy did I feel good. I feel good for many reasons all of which I can attribute to the surgery and subsequent weight loss.
Jun 28, 2008
Despite the stress, the slip ups and difficulties with emotions I have not regained and continue to lose, abliet, slowly. However, I take that as a positive sign cuz in the past (pre-surgery) I would have easily regained every ounce and then some if I had experienced what I've been experiencing this month. I take that to mean I'm doing all the right things and am making significant progress in "arresting" the bad/negative behaviors that led me to this place. Though it's still a work in progress, it is the best progress I've made.
I see Dr. M again in 4 weeks rather than 6 weeks. I'm hoping to improve on my downward slide. My loss has averaged out to be 1 3/4 pounds a week.
A handle on the difficulties
Jun 20, 2008
In addition to this I've recently been feeling hungrier especially at night. I think it's time for a fill. I have not had one yet but I see the Dr. next week on Friday.
A difficult time
Jun 04, 2008
Since last Wednesday I've had nothing but STRESS from work. Unfortunately, I have a new (1 yr ago) supervisor who speaks to me in a condensending way, doesn't support me with consumers, doesn't appear to have any confidence in my skills/experience, barely knows how to use the agency's computer system or how to process the paperwork, is comparing me to his other subordinates and has me feeling like he's trying to find fault with my work. Lastly, he barely listens.
Unfortunately, I can also see things from his view. He's been with the agency about 15 years as a VRC which is the same position I've been in for 11 years. Sadly, I know from experience and from "inhierting" his caseload when he was promoted that he was not a great counselor. But, he's new to supervision having never done it before. He's new to the demands of a supervisor within the agency which I'm sure are different from the counselor's. He also has to deal with the fact that he is no longer a "co-worker buddy" but is now viewed and people relate to him as a supervisor. He can't be your close friend anymore (not that he and I were ever friends to begin with). What I'm saying is I realize he has a difficult transisition to make and needs time to adjust but he's had a year so far with little change.
What does all this mean to me personally. Heaps of self imposed stress as well as real stress. It has caused me to fall back on old patterns of behavior which was eating. However, I'm more aware of the triggers and have been arresting them before they get going, if you know what I mean. I've made strides in changing my behaviors so I'm proud of that. But, this stress is sure testing me. It also has me actually HATING my job.
Please anyone have some advice, words of wisdom or positive support? I could really use some. I'm alone here with no one but the cats and they listen but can't offer any words of comfort. Help, I don't want to go backwards here.
Reached the goal and set for new one!
May 28, 2008
I've set my chart for another 30#. I've decided to get a facial, pedi and mani to celebrate this achievement.
I hope everyone is doing well. I haven't heard from "friends" here in sometime. It seems everyone is doing ok from their profiles. Well, stay in touch. I'm missing you all, thinking of you all and praying for you all.