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So, about 2 weeks ago I had to go in for surgery for intersesecction. Spelling ? Pretty much my intestines started to slip into my bowel causing pain. But, lap surgery later and feeling much better. I guess this is something that happens pretty rare with the roun y post op specially after a few years out. Which by the way, 4 yrs post op now and crazy to think of.
 My kids do not remember me heavier nor do my co workers. Had quite a bit of weight loss this year, but part due to stopping a med, watching what I eat more, and stress. First time in my life I lost weight due to stress and not gained. But things are better now. I am at the lowest ever since high school before the weight gain. Feel pretty good acutally.
Felt had to update this page a bit and mention my 1st post op hiccup. Hurt like hell for a bit but recovery was fairly easy and feeling much better. Hope it to not happen again, but possibility.

Holly cow. So, it has been awhile since I have been on here. I guess better late than never. I did have counselor take me off the damn medicine that caused some of the weight gain. I have lost about 11 lbs since then. Feeling good about that. Had to go back to basics some with food. Cottage Cheese was my bff for awhile. Cut back on my portions again too. So, I am not worried about being 138 lbs again, but I will be happy to get to 155lbs. That would be the 10% expected gain after being post op so far out. At least I feel better. I am so glad that the weight can come off again. Paranoia is a bad thing. That part I dont think ever goes away. I got heavy once you feel like it will again. Knowing now that I have a tool and need to utilize it. Be true to it and do my part.
 Anyway, here is yet another update. As late as it is, but its here. LOL
 Hope whoever reads this is well, and on the way or at a healthier you.

So it is the Holiday season and there is so much going on in my life. I am on some antidepressants that are not helping with my weight. I have gained so much weight. I need to lose 13 lbs stat. I am starting to feel like crap about me and physically. I will get the weight off before it gets out of control. Need to walk more, run again, and do my Gillian tape and work out with her.
 I also need to get back into counsling. I know that will help with my issues all around. Amazing to me how even with surgery the weight is only part of the issue. I have always known that and seeked counsling and did really well. Being almost 3 yrs out now makes a lot of difference. I worry so much about the weight starting out like before where no matter what I do it keeps coming on. But, I hope that does not happen. PCOS stay away!!!!!
 Anyway, I know I need to do my part to help this tool I have been given. No more excuses.

I am so bad about posting on here. Specially since not so proud of my self. I am at about 152ish now. Sometimes 155 depends when I weigh. I felt comfort in knowing that surgery patients gain about 10% back but now I am knowing its my self not sticking to stuff. I am doing better eating again. I am on a new antidepressant to help with appetite as well. I am still where Dr wanted me to be but not sure how I feel. I feel good but my panic and old feelings are coming up fast. Hubby says fine, but 10 lbs in a few months not good. Even I know that. I need to get out more again. It has not helped with my depression issues but seeing someone that is helping me with that now too. Its all a process that goes hand in hand. I thought I worked on the mental shit, but guess not enough. I am totally freaked about the idea of getting "fat" again. The BMI said overweight and that is hard to swallow. But again, in the weight my Dr said was ok. After being so low under goal now so high not good. I wanted to stay about 145ish. Will get to that. 10 or so lbs is easier than more. Need to get off my ass. Med are helping for energy now rest will follow hoping. So, on and on I go. Better get off here. I have work in AM. Night to whoever reads this post.
 Sincerely,
 Mandi K

P.S. Its always a battle and never stays easy for sure. The saying of this surgery "cheating and taking easy way out' I knew was BS  but really feel it now. I feel people always look at me and wonder about my weight gain. Or is it paranoia. Who know?

So, I was on Facebook to day and my little brother (half) made a post about "fat people" standing around and maken where others cannot use the equipment and how stupid and get the F out of the way. I was a bit pissed. I reminded him that his sister (me) use to be "fat" and he doesnt know there story and shouldnt be so quick to judge. HE then commented on how if  they are there to "workout" then do it. I told him that us "fat" poeple are there trying to change for the better. That we dont just "stand around" to look cute. That we may be new the scene and not sure where to start or how to work the machines. So, needless to say, even though I am half my former self, I still get pissed. Young dumb ass people make me mad. Even if he is my half brother (not so close) still...............
 I also mentioned that my comments where on my soap box from experience. Then have to love the comments from his friends about the "fat fuckers". Still pissed. Cant change the fact that people will judge and be rude regarless of why.

Well, I did do the whole 13 plus miles in under 4 hrs. LOL Really I am disappointed the run. I ended up walking more than I had planned do to hip pain. But, I am told I finished and that says something. I felt physically I could have run more and for sure mentally, but oh no had to hurt. By the end I was finished. I am planning to try another one and do much better with a much better time. We shall see how that goes.

Well, just call me an idiot. I thought the run I signed up for was a 3K, well oh no, it is a freakin 1/2 marathon. 13 plus miles. I am going to do my best with this challenge. A goal I have had since before surgery was to run a run of some sort. Well, the chance is here. Longer than I expected, but I have to run with it. I may not run it all, but by damn I will run as much as I can. Feels good to know I will achieve yet another goal in this weight loss life.
 Hope all is well with all my past friends and everyone else on this site.
 I have a friend/co-worker haven surgery on May 4,2010 and I can hardly contain my excitement for her and the life she will have. I see her going through all the crap I did (and most of us) and just remind her that is will be worth it. I cant wait to see her transform into someone she use to be.
 Well, I am at work so I best go, but that is me in a nut shell for now.
 Oh yeah, I got braces about 2 weeks ago. I am told that I will no longer look at all like my former self. But I am still me forever for sure. Just a happier me.
 Best wishes to you all. Happy journeys too.

So I am over 2 yrs out now and feeling pretty good. I am so glad and lucky to be someone that got my life back. I went from 275lbs and now weigh about 142. I was a bit freaked about the 142 since I did get down to 138 but, I didnt realize that in year one you get to your lowest and in year two most people gain about 10 lbs and then level out. So, I am ok. Still a scale whore which is bad. But I feel great. 
 I am in the process of training for a 3k walk/run here with some friends and co-workers here in Idaho. I am very excited this has been a gaol for me since surgery. But, now I am going to do it.
 I have a friend and co-worker haven surgery in May and I am SO excited for her. I cant even begin to tell her the crazy ride she is in for and the great things that will come to her.
 Anyway, I am a size 6 misses. (a bit smaller then High School yet weigh more.) I am ok with me.
 I did just get braces that I have wanted for year. This is more painful than surgery was. But will be worth it in the end.
 Hope all is well for everyone else. Best of luck in all your journeys.

So, I am now about 20 months out and feel pretty good. I did have a bit of transfer addiction with shopping. I am now paying for that. I am going to get back into counsling for sure. I was below goal at 138 lbs until about 6 weeks ago. Iam now at 143 lbs. which I am sure to a lot of people your like "really dont complain that is awesome" or " I wish...." trust me I was there too. But now I have to worry that I am going to go back into PCOS ways of the body and gain gain gain. I meet with my Dr in March but I am really worried. I have not wieghed over 138 in almost a year now. So, where does this 143 leave me? Just sayin....
 Again, I know some of you may think this is stupid but I went from a size 7 junior to a size 14 in less than a year and told I was fine until I was later dx with PCOS. I pray its not happening again. Once PCOS is gone does it stay gone?????

So, I am about 17 months post op now. Doing and feeling really good. Not too often food gives me issues. But very rare and usually its cause I eat too fast. I can eat about anything. I do have to be careful. I stay within 3 lbs until this week. I went up 4 lbs which I know is no biggy, but....I feel bad since I have not weighed 140 lbs for months now. I have been between 135-138 for months. I am panicked but not sure if I should be. My goal was 145 so why am I upset?
 Anyway, I hope you all are good. Best of luck and congrats to you all for whatever it is you have achieved inthis crazy journey.