kwinkleman
Finding True Happiness
Mar 18, 2012
Hello blogging friends!!!!!!!! I finally got my laptop back and internet at my new place so I should be able to post more often again....I have honestly missed it. On the weight loss side things have been rough. It is so hard to have pregnancy hormones and be hungry yet at the same time trying to not over eat and dealing with the unbelievable bloating.....which by the way no one knows what causes or how to help. I had a gastro tell me that even if they could figure it out there is nothing they could give me.....so basically I am left to just suffer it out. I have gained around 10-15 pounds and I can so tell. I can't wait to have baby and get back on track.So my thoughts of the day have actually been thoughts I have been having for about a month now. How do you find Happiness? What makes you happy? I think I have posted about this before but it is something that I think about a lot so I am revisiting the subject. I firmly believe in being happy. I think that people in general should be happy. Working around death every day has made me appreciate life in a totally different light. Why spend every single day unhappy, why spend even one second unhappy? There are people that lose their loved ones everyday, for that family there will be no more happiness with that person. Life is too short. I have found happiness with my weight loss. I have found that I am more outspoken (which some people don't like LOL), I have found that I am more outgoing (took my son to Tampa, stayed the night and went to Clearwater Beach this weekend). I find that I will venture out and do things on my own or with my son that I never would have done before. Before when I was 301 pounds I wanted to stay in the house, and if I left the house it was for a purpose-to go to the grocery store, to go get a specific item, or if I did go out it had to be with someone else because I never wanted to do things on my own. Losing weight isn't just about the pounds dropping it is also about the mental picture. What it does to you mentally is amazing.
So back to this happiness thing. My #1 question is this::::: should we be happy in our careers? Should I enjoy what I do at work for the most part? Should I enjoy where I work for the most part? Every job is going to have its ups and downs but overall should I enjoy it? I think the answer is YES. And if so.....I need to reevaluate and think about making some major changes because I am NOT happy with my current employment. I love the legal profession, I love the area of law that I work in, I think that if handled correctly we can honestly make true changes in the lives of our clients. But I do not agree with the things that go on at this particular place or the way that things are handled. Everything is so hush hush, people will smile in your face and stab you in the back as you walk by. The lies and BS come flying every single day. The growth is there but the employees are not appreciated. The constant back and forth, no direct answers, wishy washy garbage is almost unbearable. So in that aspect I think it would be safe to say that it is time for a change. I hate coming to work and just sitting at my desk, too frustrated to move forward, and too angry to actually do quality work. It use to not be that way, I use to be the first one here and the last one to leave, I always knew that my work should speak for itself and I felt that it did. I knew that I went above and beyond and I expected that to be recognized....it never was and now I feel like there is no point in keeping up that high level of work product for what? I know that is a completely negative attitude and I don't like being that way which is why I think an evaluation is necessary.
THEN....there is the baby!!!! HE is doing great. I have chose the name Masen!!! I am 24 weeks yesterday. I want stability for myself, my son and the new baby. So I think it would probably be best to wait on changing jobs until after baby Masen is born. Then I can truly asses the situation, financially, time wise, and not have to expect a new employer to be willing to allow me 6 weeks off after I just started a month ago. Plus financially I really need the time that I already have here and the insurance. So I think I have answered my own questions....which is why I love this site, this blog, and having the freedom of expression to say exactly what is on my mind, get it all out in the open, and I usually come to a conclusion!
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FL
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11/29/2010
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Oct 01, 2010
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