Just a thought

Aug 28, 2012

I woke up this morning thinking about food as usual and kicking myself for getting up in the middle of the night and eating those 5 chicken nuggets....but dang it they were good!!! 
While I was kicking myself down the hallway I thought to myself that maybe I wouldn't crave this stuff if I was eating more healthy "alternatives" to the junk that I am craving.  Chocolate is a big one for me.  I told my boss yesterday that we should have chocolate breaks...do I need a chocolate break? NO, if chocolate was in the office would I sit here and eat it till I was sick?  Yes.  So a chocolage break is probably not a good idea LOL.  But if I am craving chocolate there has to be some "alternative" that can give me the taste that I am wanting without the calories.  Then I thought there just might be healthier "alternatives" to most of the things that I have been craving.  For instance, the other day I was talking about the English Muffin and cream cheese.  Ok, so bread kills my stomach and makes me bloat...so it is not the bread that I want....it is the yummy cream cheese.  So why not have maybe some celery with fat free cream cheese?  I love the onion and chive cream cheese, regular fat is 80 calories in 2 tablespoons, the fat free is only 30 calories in 2 tablespoons.  Plus if I am eliminating the muffin (which isn't sweet...so why do they call it a muffin?), I am also eliminating those calories as well so I could just go head and have the regular full fat (full flavor) cream cheese.  And then the chocolate...as I was scouring through the cabinets I found a package of chocolate fudge sugar free fat free Jell-O pudding mix.  So I made it (of course) with fat free milk and to my surprise it actually had a great chocolate taste....who would have ever guessed LOL.  Only 80 calories per serving.  I think I personally am going to look into finding more of these healthy lower calorie alternatives.  I read one online this morning for pizza....which called for a corn tortilla topped with fresh tomatoes, cheese, and veggies then popped in the toaster oven till melted.  I don't remember the calories and I guess it really depends on the type of cheese used but it sounds pretty good.  AND as an added bonus the corn tortilla is thin....and eliminates the bread crust that upsets my pouch.  
So what is my point?  That I believe a balance is going to take time, research, and preparation....something that I should have started almost 2 years ago when I first had the surgery.  But I will admit that I took the easy route.  I wasn't hungry before so not eating a lot or certain things was simple....that not hungry feeling has gone far far away....and maybe it is mental but still it is there.  I wish I would have had this conversation with myself 2 years ago but I guess it is better now than never

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