It's hard to know where to start.  It feels like I have been overweight my whole life.  I have been married to my high school sweetheart for 20 years.  This June 7th it will be 21 years.  We have three children: 18 yrs old son, 16 yrs old daughter and a 13 yrs old son. 

When I was a freshman in high school I was able to get the weight off with a liquid diet.  I felt fit, alive and beautiful. 

Once I got married, I began to gain the "Honeymoon 20".  Mine turned into "Honeymoon 50".  I tried every diet under the sun with little to no success.  I only got more frustrated, disgusted and larger. 

Two years ago, I experienced the biggest success with the "Adkins Diet" but once I began eating even a few carbs, I started gaining.  It's all so defeating. 

Over the last 10 years I've just continued to gain...becoming the person I never expected to be.  I am tired all the time,  have no energy, look for excuses to stay home or stay in the house so as not to feel ashamed...overall disgusting and ugly. 

One thing the Lord has recently brought to my attention about myself is how I've been decieved into thinking that I can hide by being overwieght.  Not only have I tried hiding physically but I've even become apprehensive to speak in public because of being embarassed of what I look like and not wanting people to look at me. 

What the Lord showed me about all of this was it has been a cruel joke played on me and I've eaten the lies up; hook, line and sinker.  By being overweight I've actually done the complete opposite to myself.  I've become more noticable, more of a spectacle.  Isn't it interesting how our heart and mind is so decieved if we're not paying attention.

I've had enough "Hiding" for one lifetime!  In August of 2005, I went to the Bariatric Surgery seminar, filled out the paperwork and sent it in. 

I ended up having to have a hysterectomy in October 2005.  My OB/GYN recommended Dr. Marquez but both felt I needed to recooperate from the surgery before moving forward with the WLS.

I am one year past the hysterectomy and have been extremely anxious to get the WLS behind me.  I am ready for the mirror to reflect the person I am inside as well as the person I see in my minds eye.

 

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