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I stall, then I lose, then I stall again, then I lose.  I think it's the stress that causes havoc in my system.  It may be that I emotionally eat, but I'm trying to watch that.  I think it may have more to do with the stress hormones messing with my metabolism. I understand that the less I weigh then the harder it is for me to lose weight, but I still think that it's not the problem.  I have been soooo... stressed out lately that it's a wonder I can remain sane.  I have money woes (everybody does so get over it already).  My mother-in-law worries me.  She lives with us and has diabetes and uses insulin.  She doesn't understand how to eat correctly for her diet.  I can't stay with her 24/7.  Right now, she's in GA with her other son.  I know she'll come back and be in bad shape.  Last time it took 6 months to get her regulated.  My daughter lives with a boyfriend that I disapprove of.  I have tried to like him.  I have bent over backwards to help him and her.  I know that noone will ever be good enough for her but this guy is a piece of work.  I went over to their apartment on Sunday to talk with him. (My daughter left my house crying after talking with him on the phone)  He wouldn't answer the phone and finally hung up on me so I went over there.  OMG!  He called the cops on me.  I didn't threaten him in any way.  WTF!  The cops wouldn't come.  They said to get the landlady.  So, she wouldn't come either.  I finally started getting a low so I left.  The little SOB still hasn't apologized.  He doesn't have a job and has the balls to ask my husband for gas money to go to the food stamp office.  He told him that my daughter could always come home to eat.  I just don't know about this younger generation of thugs.  My son is a little different.  He at least has a job and is going to college in the spring.  His girlfriend, however, is another story.  She doesn't have a job, but is very high maintenance.  My son is trying to save for college, but she spends his money as soon as he gets it.  Why does he put up with it?  PerFume and Gasoline  Ugh!  Right now, my sister and her husband are visiting our house.  Her daughter is pregnant.  They're having a boy!  We found out yesterday.  I'm happy but it's just one more thing on my stress plate.  I really need to learn to relax and not worry so much.  Tomorrow is MudFest.  Maybe I'll be able to relax a little.  Time to go.  I have a safety meeting at work.

Now, what do I do.  I've stalled for several weeks now.  I saw my doctor last Thursday.  I've lost 14 pounds since I saw him last.  He said I was doing okay.  And he was especially proud of how much I'd lost all together.  For my stall he suggested to walk 9 minutes and jog one and then repeat until my hour is up.  Then in a few weeks, I should walk 8 minutes and jog 2.  And so on until I'm jogging 9 minutes and running one.  Ahhh!  I hate jogging and running!  I hate exercising!  I hate being told what to do.  I know I'm only hurting myself but I think I'll have to find another way to reset my metabolism.  I bought some sketchers.  Maybe it'll help.  I know not enough but oh well.  Anybody know something easier than jogging that I can try to pump it up a bit.  I'm kinda big chested and I don't want to get black eyes. LOL

I made it past that ugly 200 pound mark.  It was so hard to get past that mark.  I don't know.  Maybe I had a mental problem since I haven't been under 200 since 1990.  I feel like I was sabotoging myself.  But I did it and i'm not going back!  Now only about 40 - 60 more to go.

Why am I getting smaller; but my body shape reamining the same.  I still have my HUGE belly.  I know I'm losing inches.  I know I losing pounds.  I know I'm decreasing my clothes' sizes.  I know I'm feeling more energetic.  I know my medicines have decreased.  I know my health problems are getting better.  But why-oh-why has my belly remained the same?

Does anyone else have a mental problem when you've been losing weight so fast just after surgery (liquids, etc.) and then your body starts adjusting and you slow your weight loss down to 1-2 pounds per week.  I know that it's a good rate; but before I was losing so much faster.  I feel almost like a failure; although in my head I know that I'm right on target and doing very good.  Is anyone else having these emotional doubts?  Or am I the only crazy one out there?