Surgery Date Approaching
Jan 03, 2010So my day is just around the corner now. I've been on the 2 week diet and seem to be doing alright for the most part. It's been a busy time so that has helped. I did, however, have to cook the family and friends that we had over (for New Year's) dinner and that was REALLY hard. I had made some yummy Mexican food: Chicken empenadas, tacos, rice and refried beans. No, I did NOT cheat. I stayed true to my diet. But I do have to admit all I was thinking the WHOLE time was how I can't wait for the day I'm able to eat that stuff again. Oh it smelled so good. Anyways..... the past couple days I've been getting the house reorganized from Christmas and New Year's and have been getting all the laundry done. My in-laws are going to be here to take care of the family while I'm in the hospital and then the hotel. I wanted to make sure they have as little as possible to worry about in my absence. I was quite successful I must say. I managed to get the Christmas tree taken down and all the ornament. I put the formal living room (where we had our tree and stuff) back together and vacuum and got the laundry completely finished and put away. That's actually a task in this household, having 3 children and a husband who burn through clothes. It's all done and it feels good. Not only that but this will also allow me to relax these last handful of days before surgery. I don't particularly want to be stressing about the household just days before.
That being said, I don't really have too many nerves about it right now. Is that weird?? I hate the idea of being up there alone while in the hospital, but I'm not really nervous. I hate the thought of something possibly happening to me and not being able to be there for my girls and my husband, but I don't feel nervous. I have NO doubt though, that it'll most certainly hit me as soon as it's my turn to go back and change. In fact I'll probably turn into the biggest baby.....OUT OF NO WHERE!! Okay, well maybe not that bad. Well maybe yeah. I'm not going to want to say goodbye to my hubby who only can be there for the surgery and then has to return home to go back to work. UGH! He'll be back up that Friday though and was able to get the time off to stay in the hotel with me. That, I'm thinking, is the most important time.
So Monday's the day. Friday I'll drive up for all my pre-admin stuff and then drive the 3 1/2 hrs back down to spend the weekend with the family. Then Sunday the hubby and I will drive back up together for the big day Monday. YAY! I've been preparing myself mentally for the worst scenarios as far as complications and am trying to make sure I'm as strong as possible in order to help me progress faster after surgery. I feel I'm pretty strong and have great motivation. I'm hoping I'll be able to burn through the healing process. I guess we will soon see!