Part 2...

Jan 21, 2010

To add further frustration to the story I have this overwhelming feeling of having traded in my michelin man for the saggy baggy elephant. The person in the mirror looking back at me is a stranger, and while part of me is looking forward to getting to know her, a part of me sometimes feels like I'm floating in an abyss of solid frustration. I had made some pretty big plans for my homecoming and future plans and now I may not be able to drive a car again -- which sounds petty -- but since it had been several years since I could fit behind the wheel it was pretty high on my list.  I envisioned having the freedom to now walk to the library and such finally being healthy, but now because of this damned nerve damage it's always a worry that  I might fall.  Hubby is a worry wart sometimes -- but I appreciate that he's the one that watched me while I lay in a coma not knowing if I'd live or die but that feeling of being babysat grates on my nerves sometimes.  

Don't get me wrong, things are better for the most part -- I'm smaller, healthier, and will be here a long long time for having done this,  but I wouldn't be human if I wasn't looking at what I had and trying to figure out how to make the most of it.  I'm still working on that part of it.  Waiting is the hard part -- at least if I can have the consults and they can explain to me the procedures and plan I can relax a little..  

I'm working on my "me" list lately, doing some more writing -- even submitting some for publication!! Looking at some courses, and plotting for the future.  I've spent way too many years being sucked into the drama of everybody else in the family and everyone's needs so now I'm mandating that there's a little of me thrown back into the mix - I've been taking me out of it for so long if almost feels wrong to toss me back into the soup pot -- I'm finding though that giving myself the gift of some me time, and putting my well being higher on the list is making a difference.  At least on the crappy days -- teen attitude among other things I can still smile knowing I have created a "happy place" for me to wander too to escape for a little bit at a time.. 

So how are all of you doing? It's been ages since my last update.  For those of you that were text messaging me -- I finally replaced my cell just before Christmas, got a shiny new blackberry -- I wanted a different phone but hubby made a solid argument in favor of the BB so we went with it.  Unfortunately I lost all my contact information in the cell that got broken while I was in hospital so I'll need to get updated #'s again. 

I haven't been here for a while, and I apologize for that.  I had a couple of people that I thought were my friends here literally stop speaking to me when they heard how much weight I'd lost and that still baffles me -- we're not all on the same path -- we all started at different places and we're gonna end up in different places.  I thought it was supporting each other but perhaps I was mistaken.  I started out so much heavier than some, it only makes sense that I would drop more.  Let's not forget I ended up in bed, on TPN and liquid feeds for months and in hospital for over 11 months keeping my lymphedema legs elevated and all that played a factor too.  In order to get where i am I was in HELL..   so now I have to feel bad for where  I got to?  Uh-UH, sorry.. no can do.  I am so sorry that you cannot be happy for me as I have been for you.  This was supposed to be a journey in friendship, not a crapfest in jealousy.  I wish you well in your future endeavors friends  -    so sorry that it didn't work out differently.  

For those of you who have kept in touch, and continue to keep up when I actually do get in here. THank you!  There's still so much about this lifestyle change and this journey that I have yet to learn and I am truly looking forward to getting to know you better in the process.  

Cheers!




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2 years down the road..

Jan 21, 2010

According to the mailbox on here I haven't been here since August.  Wow, I didn't realize it had been that long. 

Yesterday was my 2 year surgiversary, and in some ways it feels like it was only yesterday and in others light years away.  After everything, 11 months in hospital, - nerve damage and fistula, ambulance air transport, and finally,  being sent home in a wheelchair by ambulance against OT's advice because my ankle was sprained during physio @ Rehab - I am still here.  I thank my lucky stars that I am a stubborn old broad because if I weren't, I may have just laid down and given up but I'm just not made that way.

Even after it felt like home care had given up on me and the frustration level was to the moon, I kept pushing the envelope just a little every chance I got.  Before long I was walking around the house (at least) with a quad cane.  I've had to get a brace for the drop foot and drop ankle, and I'm still not completely where I want to be -- but I'm alive -- I'm walking around the house now without a cane most often and only really use the cane when ultra tired, doing stairs, or going out in the community.  The last couple of times we went shopping I didn't even take the wheelchair.  I was so pleased with myself!

The last time I was weighed was a couple of months back but I'd lost 288 pounds.  I seem to be playing with a 5-10 pound gap now but when put next to how far I come it just doesn't register as a problem. My favorite is bumping into people that we haven't seen in a long time and having them do the visual back and forth from hubby to me, as they click in that it is me, and not that he's running around on me.  LOL   Love that look of OMFG on their faces when they realize that the woman standing beside them isn't a stranger.  That -- will never NEVER get old!  Though hearing "Look at You!  before some go into a big speech about how much happier I am with my new body -- well that gets really old.  Particularly when despite everything I'm not.  

In the beginning I didn't have any loose skin, and it wasn't really an issue. Docs had said that I shouldn't worry that they would fix it all up 1-2 years down the road -- including fixing my hernias and reattaching stomach muscles -- they don't want to do.  They want to leave well enough alone.  While the rational adult in me understands what they are saying and is thankful to be alive,  there is a part of me that is angrier than hell that after all of this I still have to deal with the "fat person" problem of heat rashes -- often worse than they ever were before -- as well as bat wings and saggy parts.  The stomach muscles that aren't attached leave bodily function close the surface so much that after I eat you'd swear there was an alien in there as you can actually seem my stomach ripple.  That's not what I signed on for -- he was reluctant to even make the appointments for surgical consult which alarmed and saddened me.   (cont..)



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A whole year already.. where the heck did it go?

Jan 19, 2009

Wow..  I was sitting here this morning looking at my day planner and copying birthdays and such from my 08 agenda to the new one since I hadn't gotten very far with that the other day before I got my nursing visit.  I was looking at today's date and what's coming up for the week, much as I do every Monday but then it hit me.  This Wednesday my baby sister turns 31, and as well, it's my very first surgiversary. Where the heck did this whole year go?? 

Seems like only a couple of weeks ago I was in here reading posts and trying to decide how best to proceed.  No matter how prepared I thought I was, I did not forsee any of what has happened to me, though somehow I'm not as bitter and twisted about it as I could be.  That's not to say that I don't have my angry-frustrated-what-the-hell-did-I-do-wrong-to-deserve-this-$hit days but for the most part I'm just grateful to still be here to tell my story.  I lost a year of my life, 268 pounds, my asthma, my diabetes II, my sleep apnea and most of my hair.  I missed my younger daughter's grade 8 graduation, my elder daughter's sweet 16 birthday, school plays, cadet functions, seeing my elder daughter in her work uniform on the first day and so many other big and little things that I wouldn't have missed for the world if given the opportunity to choose.  Such a mixed blessing..  the time away gave me some much needed perspective.  I got to spend a little time re-evaluating what *I* want out of life.  I've spent so much time worrying about who else needed what, and putting my own wants aside in favor or something someone else needed (be it boyfriend, kids, family whatever) because heavens they're all SO MUCH MORE IMPORTANT right?  Well this year it's *MY* turn.  I must admit I feel a little selfish for saying so, but at the same time it feels good too. 

I set about making myself some realistic goals.  I had already warned hubby that after surgery I wouldn't be going out for dinner for a long while.  The idea of public displays of barfing as we discover which foods do and don't work anymore just doesn't give me any kind of warm fuzzy feeling -- plus I've been doing a lot of reading and research, collecting recipes, learning different ways to make things we already love, and enjoying myself immensely finding ways to repurpose leftovers into something that doesn't generally resemble the original meal.  I want to reduce the amount of food and ultimately money that this family literally throws in the garbage on a weekly basis because things aren't getting used and so they go bad.  It's taking some tweaking because with not being mobile I have to rely on the generousity of our teens, but I have a pretty good system worked out with our younger daughter and so far (knock on wood) it seems to be working out pretty well. 

I signed up for a Floral Design Course. No, I don't want to be a florist, but I am interested in gardening, and I love flowers.  I thought that it would be something to keep my hands busy and my mind occupied and if nothing else when push comes to shove I may be able to do my own wedding flowers when I finally get my big day :)  We had planned for August 8, 08 but being in hopsital kind of dashed that to the moon... I still have my eye on a few genealogy courses, and a few other personal interest courses but the genealogy courses are more expensive than I can swing right now so I'md oing the Personal Interest route first..    we'll see where  we're at in 6-8 months or so when all the medical supplies and mods are organized.

I need to learn to disengage more.  I have always given my whole heart and soul with everything I do, and I'm finding as a stepmom it's SO HARD sometimes.  I always considered myself to be so lucky because when we got together the kids were small and I didn't have to endure any of the nightmares my fellow stepmoms shared with me.  Amazing how a few years can change things.  Now it's the teenager brigade always playing both ends against the middle, and my evil stepmonster wart is always in high gear..   according to them anyhow.  Yet if they stopped and thought about it for a while they'd realize (at least I would hope they would)  that I've only ever given them the very best I could.  I have always rallied to their causes and been an active participant in their lives.  Unfortunately their mom is generally more of a Disneyland Mom who showers them with praise and affection for 2 days every couple of weeks and completely ignores them the rest of the time, no phone calls or anything, and usually only one --MAYBE two kids are important at any given time -- NEVER all 3.  I just don't play that way.   I'm not saying I'm better than anyone else, I'm just saying that all the kids should be treated fairly, you know?

I want/need to find an excercise buddy.  I want to get a Y membership or something.  Trying to get my physio and everything in is difficult now because much of my list has to be done when someone is here because they're worried I might fall.  Unfortunately Hubby isn't always available and when he is, he isnt always available if you get my drift..  

More than anything I just want things to move forward, and improve on what I've achieved so far.  I've got so much decluttering to do in our house. 12 years of 2 packrats is rough, plus after 3 years here we still have a basement full of unpacking to do because hubby was in a car accident a few week before we moved, and I wasn't able to lift either due to med issues.  I *so* want to get at it, but I can't even go downstairs right now..  

SO I'm all raring to go, and it's like someone didnt put gas in the car or something..  but I'm determined I *will* get there.   I just hope I'll still know where I was going when I finally arrive. :)

For anyone who was text messaging me on my cell.  It got broken when I was in hospital in Toronto, and I haven't yet replaced it.  We've dumped Bell as well, so we have a new voice #,  e-mail me or PM for that if you want it and I'll let you know when I have a new Cell so we can get back to texting.  For anybody that's still using MSN or Yahoo let me know and I'll add you to my list so we can chat live sometime.. :)

Cheers!

Tammy

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Updates.. Long overdue..

Jan 12, 2009

Well here we are in 2009. Hard to believe my first surgiversary is already almost here.  It doesn't feel like it's been a year.  Especially since I spent 11 months in hospital this year. Incidentally that's not *quite* what I meant when I said I needed a vacation.  I guess I wasn't specific enough.  (Sigh)  I was in Toronto for 8 months, then transferred by Air Ambulance to Brockville where I spent another 3 months in the Rehab unit of the hospital.  A little over a month into it I sprained my ankle, of course the same leg/foot/ankle that had the nerve damage in Toronto so I really made a mess. 
After a few weeks of telling me to work through the pain they changed their minds and decided that I should not walk on it for at least 5 weeks because I might be doing more damage -- GO FIGURE.  This was their reasoning for kicking me from Rehab and sending me home.  Well they wanted to force me into a convalescent bed in a nursing home for a short time but it would have been out of pocket not covered by OHIP or our medical insurance in any way and honestly who has that kind of money 3 weeks before Christmas?  If we'd known ahead of time we could have planned for it, but they were giving us a whopping 2 days notice -- Nasty. 
In any event they ended up sending me home by ambulance 2 weeks before Christmas despite the fact that the OT advised against it because my house isn't wheelchair accessible, and if the place catches on fire I'm as good as dead.  They weren't too concerned about that somehow.  Sure gives you that warm fuzzy feeling.   When they say that our health care system has gone to hell they sure weren't kidding.
As of 4 weeks ago I've lost 266 pounds. It was 268 but on last weigh in I'd gained 2 pounds.  We'd been walking more, doing standing transfers, and leg excercises though so I imagine a lot of that was muscle coming back.  The fluid in my legs is starting again too so that  doesn't help either..  but I'm almost half my weight now, and feeling pretty good.
Still having eating issues, but it's improved some.  I have no more sleep apnea, diabetes numbers are good, and my asthma hasn't been an issue either. so there are some perks in there too..
Hope that everyone is doing well..   Let's Catch Up Soon :)
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Hang on Tight.. Here Comes the Rollercoaster..

Jul 11, 2008

It's been quite a roller coaster ride, and every time I've planned to get in and update I either get sidetracked in reading, or I'd get posting it ane my connection here would reset and with my left arm being in such rough shape I'd get frustrated and leave it for another day.  So now we're almost 6 months down the road and I figured I'd better get in here and post some updates..    I was sad coming in today to see everyone fighting on the forums.  I realize that it's human nature for any group of adults to have differences of opinion, but I've always thought of this as a positive and supportive healing place.  Thankfully like most things, this too shall pass.. :)  

I came in on surgery day with A-Channel reporter Laura Lowe filming our entrance to the hospital.  I understand that while I was in surgery she talked to my hubby, and later spoke to Dr. Huynh, and Dr. Dent in Ottawa.  She also interviewed 2 of our kids, and my husband.  When I finally get home she wants to have me on air in the studio along with some other people who's surgeries they followed.  I know they had the clips on the web for a while but they aren't there anymore.  Laura is going to make me a copy to keep of all the footage so it will be available later for anyone who might be interested.. 

So I had the surgery on Jan 21st as planned.  As I understand it after the pouch was made my old stomach was distended and it essentially exploded. It took 4 surgeries to fix everything, and 3 surgeons too. I was in ICU for 2 1/2 weeks sedated and tubed.  My hubby tells me that I kept tryin to scratch my nose with the hand that had the o2 sensor on it, he was sure I was gonna have a big bruise. LOL  

Well during that time I gather they didn't do much to reposition me or anything.  They had my stomach open under a clear tape for a while too to keep an eye on everything.  As a result of the non-movement I suffered nerve damage in my left arm and leg which didn't become evident until 3 weeks later when I was moved to my room and realized I couldn't lift my arm.  As a result I've been confined to bed since then. 

During my stay I've had a pick-line infection, pnemonia, a bladder infection, a UTI, to name a few.  Then they put a vac therapy on me to help speed up the wound healing.  My surgeon didn't like this idea, and was vocal about it.  The wound specialist kept pushing til he agreed to try it.  Well I understand that a lot of people have great results, but for me it pulled part of my bowel through the mesh and created a fistula.  So now we have been waiting for my wound to heal enough so that the skin is strong enough to hold when he opens me up to fix it.  Seems sad we've waited all this time just to open it again. Siiigh.  

In the meantime, I've stood for the first time, and taken my first steps. This week I walked 2 metres twice,  which was a big milestone. Today I was weighed to find out that I'm down another 13.3 pounds, bringing me down to almost 220 lost.  I haven't had to usde my puffers in close to 2 months, my legs are down to a normal size.. and for the first time in years I can sleep on my back.  there are many perks..  but they haven't come without a price.  Most days I am thankful just to be alive after everything,  but some days it feels like the price is too high..   I've missed so much.  

My hubby has been wonderful, tromping up here every weekend (with few exception) to visit -- 4 1/2 hours leavin home at 6am Saturday and not arrivin hometil midnight sundays.  I have always considered myself lucky to have finally found my prince but he has really shone over these last few months.  He's gone way above and beyond anything I would have hoped for, let alone expected.  

We'er still waiting for the transfer to Ottawa.  So much red tape and then the doc was away for two weeks.  With any luck we'll have some news early this week.  I *so* need a change of scenery. 

Well that's where I'm at..  :)  

Day 10.. Wow, where did the time go?

Jan 15, 2008

Well we went in for my appointment yesterday with Dr. Zupnik (Internal Medicine) and the Dietician Class.  Last appointments before the big day -- wow, I can't believe that it's all coming at us so fast.  I often make reference to blinking and having time fly by but this week has been crazy.  At different times I've been running from Optifast to Optifast, just counting the day off in 4 hour blocks until the last one of the day, and then declaring day # over.  Other times it seemed to crawl by at the speed of a snail crawling across the aquarium wall, and that too was frustrating -- bouncing between OMG I have to have some another drink, and holy crap slow down I need more time!!   So hard to explain..  well not to you guys, I'm confident you know exactly what I'm talking about. 

The dietician class as predicted was mostly information I'd already read here, or heard from different OH veterans, but I was happy to learn that the 5 calorie Crystal light was OK, and to share with the group our dilemma about finding this 0 calorie version that didn't exist.  I also told them about some of the 0 calorie items we did find -- like Walmart's Great Value brand.  Not all flavors are 0 calorie, but they have a couple.  They have a raspberry version that 0 sugar, 0 calorie, but OMG it tastes so good!  We filled the blender with ice, and mixed up a package -- it seemed like such a decadent treat!  I told the girls about it when we got home last night, we're going to make slushies this week..   Kind of neat to be able to share a treat with them that's actually GOOD for them, and good for me and my soon to be pouch too.  Yay team :) 

Learned that in addition to the crystal light that we're okay with the SF jello.  I'd read it here but it hadn't been confirmed for *me* so I was hesitant to take the chance.  I did, however, last week when the metallic aftertaste was getting to me.  I figured that 10 calories 4 times over the course of the week wasn't going to make a huge difference, and in the end I only had it 3 times..   The dietician also told us that another thing we could have was Salad.. well lettuce anyhow.  Hadn't even occurred to me that lettuce is 0 calories.  She said the trick was in what you put on it,  lemon juice, vinegar, or a light vinegrette was fine..  so I told the kids we were having 'salad' with supper tonight..   they thought it was funny that Mom was going to get to eat..   lol   You take your victories where you can get them, right?

I met a few new faces yesterday, and got to meet one of my surgery "twins" in person yesterday.  That was nice.  It will be interesting to see if we end up being roomies next week. I was suprised to hear how few people had heard about OH.  I gave the URL out to 3 or 4 people yesterday.  I can't imagine what this ride would have been like without it.  I also made a point of telling the dietician about it, I can't believe she'd never heard of it before.  One gentleman was asking about support from our own areas -- he is from Windsor.  Due to confidentiality they can't pair people up without permission, but you'd think they'd have information about OH available.  In any case, I've given this link to the man from Windsor, and I also have his info.  If you happen to be from Windsor and area, and want to buddy up with someone close to home, drop me a line and I'll connect you both. :) 

So anyhow, we ducked out of the dietician class partway through to go to the Dr. appointment.  Figures they weren't in the same building as we were told after all.  They didn't realize pre-op had already done an ECG and they were going to do another one til I showed them the copy I'd brought with me.   Contrary to what I'd read here about Dr. Zupnik by a couple of people he was really nice!!  He reiterated to us what we'd been told by Dr. Dent, and Dr. Huynh and answered a few questions that had come up since all of this has been rolling along..    He told me that if there were any problems that he'd be in to see me, and laughed when I said "In that case, I hope I don't see you then".   He promised not to take offence to that.. LOL  Hubby told him he was welcome to come by and visit anyhow, and I promised to share my jello with him if he popped by...    I don't get the impression he thinks much of jello... .ROFL.. 

The best part of the day came when all was said and done.  The doctor hadn't weighed me as I thought he would and after 9 days of being on the optifast I was curious to see what kind of a difference it might have made.  We'd noticed on the ride up that there seemed to be a lot more room between my legs and the dashboard, and it was easier getting my right leg in and out of the car..  but surely it was just my imagination??  

OMG I was astonished..  and still am.  I've lost 26.5 pounds since my pre-op appointment on January 3rd!!!!   I cannot believe it...   wow..  proud and happy me moment.  Maybe drinking this Yuck does have it's benefits..
 
Well day 10, here we are..  only a few short days to go.  We'll be heading back to Toronto on Sunday for surgery Monday.  (Fingers crossed) Dr. says 2-3 days (laporoscopic) or 2+ weeks open.  Hospital says 5 days..  in any case, I'm counting on going in Monday and coming home Friday..   let's hope that's what happens.  5 days aways from the kids, and home is plenty long enough.  Our puppies are going to skin me alive coming home..  

Well hubby tells me I'm running late for my OptiYuck, so I'd better go for now..  but I'll be back soon. :)

Crystal Light 0 Calorie

Jan 10, 2008

Well I sent hubby in to pick up the Crystal light and he couldn't find anything in less than 5 calories.  I called Kraft Canada to check it out only to find that they don't make a zero calorie version -- what the heck?  It was the surgeon, and then his receptionist who told me a zero calorie Crystal Light.  She did say however if I can find someone who has one of these packages that say 0 calories on them they can look up the UPC for us and maybe get us some more information. 

We did however find several herbal teas that were 0 calories (not all of them were), noted that the regular tea we had was 1 calorie which suprised me.  

An OH friend was telling me this morning that the sugar free jello was 4 calories, but tonight hubby couldn't find any that were less than 10 per serving.  I think this number crunching is going to drive me crazy. 

Now I'm wondering if I should go ahead and get the CL anyhow with only 4 calories or if I should skip it altogether and stick with the teas. I don't want to take a chance on messing up any of my chances for a good surgery, and speedy recovery.. 

Any input would be appreciated. :)


Day 4..

Jan 10, 2008

Well I'm still getting used to the groups and have been reading here like crazy.  I really meant to start this journey from the get go by taking pictures before I started my Pre-Op rituals and doing a daily journal.  Being that this is day 4 you can see how that's working out.  Though to be fair it took me a few days to figure out where to customize my profile so I could add an avatar.. ah well here I am -- better late than never.  

Here I am at day 4 of the Optifast diet.  Days 1 and 2 went by pretty easily, much to my surprise.  I was suprised at how full I felt, and how I was having to "eat" again before I was even feeling hungry or thinking about food.  I tried to lay it out in a way that makes sense.  I figured I'd start at 9 AM, 1PM, 5PM, and then again at 9PM.  This way it was only 4 hours apart, I didn't want to be having a meal at midnight, and I also thought that by having it at 5:00 it was about an hour before our family normally eats dinner, so by the time they're eating I'm already full and even if I wanted to eat I couldn't.  So we're all good. Postive thinking, right?

So then yesterday comes.  Elder daughter slept through her alarm and missed the bus, and by the time younger daughter was up for school we had a windstorm in full effect and I didn't feel safe about sending her out.  Worked out well in the sense that they were here to help with some of the fall out of this windstorm.  We had a canvas type storage structure outside that literally blew away Wizard of Oz style into the garden, and left everything we'd had stored in it exposed to the wind and rain -- Just ducky.  The girls were able to help my father inlaw put a lot of it away yesterday while hubby was at work.  It did not however work out well in the fact that our teenagers seem to have difficulty in thinking for themselves in the "What's to eat" department.  I swear one or the other of them was in here every half hour bugging me as to what they could have to eat. There are only so many ways you can say there's a fridge, there's a pantry -- figure it out!  We'd already had the discussion with them about how difficult these two weeks were going to be.  One made popcorn, one of the biggest smells I've been dreading because our family does so much in the way of popcorn normally, and it's on the no no list for after surgery as well.  It'll be one of the biggest things I'll miss.  Then the other daughter starts asking for apple pie, and when she realized it had spoiled having been stored too long, she made cinnamon rolls -- it wasn't even that I was hungry but the smell of it just about knocked me over.  

Maybe it was timing, I don't know,  but I had a headache all afternoon, and I was dizzy off and on all afternoon.  I'd taken my diabetes meds in the morning, and I wasn't hungry or anything.  Though it was made about an hour after I'd "eaten", and let me tell you the 3 hours waiting til next time felt like days!!  Which really is so weird for me because I've never been a real junk food person.  I'm sure it has something to do with being told I can't have it that is bugging me so much.  

I have been so excited these past few days reading messages of other people's triumphs after WLS, and the enthusiasm is certainly contagious.  I have been reading a lot of the complications too which has me a little nervous as being morbidly obese isn't my only health issue.  I am thankful for the new friends I've made here.  I was elated to find a few surgery date twins to message, and have a few new friends that I've been keeping in contact with daily.  It sure makes a difference to hear the words "I know how you feel" from someone who you know truly does know how you feel and isn't just paying you lip service.  

I spoke to the surgeon's office this morning.  I'm finding with the furnace being on I'm having a lot of really dry throat and mouth (normal for me this time of year) and drinking just water isn't helping at all.  The Optifast also leaves a rather unpleasant taste in your mouth (not every time but most of the time)  which again water doesn't touch.  I called the other day wanting to know if there was anything else I could do.  The surgeon suggested Crystal light, but the 0 calorie version.   After reading here about so many people having broth, or SF popsicles, SF jello, Diet Coke (OMG POP ON A DIET?), I called back.  The receptionist told me that as long as it is 0 calorie we can have it.  I never thought I'd be so excited about getting to have JELLO..    After 4 days of drinking water and Optifast,  it will be nice to actually get to *eat* something.  I've never minded jello but I've never bought sugar free so we'll see how that goes. 

Anyhow..  I'm halfway through day 4..   Only 10 more days to go...   Hang on tight.. the best is yet to come.. :)

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